Hey, can I tell you about the afternoon sunlight that filters in at about half past four or so? I think I'll always be partial to rooms with west-facing windows. The day winds down, sometimes from nothing, and then, especially then, you're in that reflective mood. So that bar of sunlight across the comforter can be something to focus on and think about. It seems so strange sometimes to go from the quiet, the absolute stillness of my room - I've got this clock that ticks too loudly - to the activity and outwardness of the department. So humming songs, as I've said before, is good for the transition, to get one's courage up. I forget when I first realized it had worked it's way into my brain - the chorus part of that Foxgloves song "We'll Never Be Cool". There's that breathlessness before it kicks in, like the moment of consciousness that unhinges a reflex, I mean is it really worth crying about? I don't know - I've got an image in my mind of the singer in the south of France on a summer internship with his girlfriend. He'll be seated on the sofa with his feet propped up on the coffee table conjugating verbs, and she'll be on a stool before a drafting table - the kind that architects have. She'll be in a cotton skirt, bare legs, feet crossed on the rest, figuring out the dimensions of the Montpelier getaway of a modern French couple (but of noble lineage). I don't know - what's holding them back? It might seem at first that she's beyond comforting, but pretty soon he'll get up and put on their favorite record, tap her lightly on the shoulder, the barest caress, completed by memory. Then they might dance awhile with the soft summer air blowing in. He won't insist that she should know better than to mind the missed invitation. Yeah, I guess they're too knowing to be smug or superior; no, they'll admit they don't understand how their occupations could be so pedestrian when their thoughts float in the upper air. But the song that I like best right now is "Passing Through". +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+