it is nice today - it is cold and crisp - cold enough to make our cheeks rosey - yet we are all still pretty warm - it is a gray day - like the last several - it is starting to become winter outside - the trees are finally losing all there leaves - the ground is cluttered with color - that crunches as i walk over it - it is the season now - when ever this time of year comes - there is always a sort of changing of moods - it seems that when it gets grayer - so do i - gone are the long days and short nights - now the sun is up around seven and is gone again by six - it always seems that around this time of year - i seem to get sad - usually not by any sort of means - i just start to feel a little more depressed then usual - is that wrong - my mother seems to think that medication is needed because it is not right to not want to smile - but why not - - why can't i be like nature around me - trees are dying and going to sleep for the winter - nothing is coming alive - everything is slowing down and preparing to sleep - so why can't i just do the same - now i am not saying that i would like to sleep all day - it would be nice once in a while - but is there anything really wrong with not feeling like doing anything - i believe no - but friends say yes - they think that the 'spirt of life is out of me' - ugh - what is that - the spirt of life - no i am not buying that - to me it is fine to be sad - it is fine to not want to do anything - it is fine to sit around and listen to sad music all day - i guess i will just have to keep being sad and hope that everyone around me begins to understand - _________________________________________________________________ Unlimited Internet access -- and 2 months free!  Try MSN. http://resourcecenter.msn.com/access/plans/2monthsfree.asp +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+