Sinister: only slightly, only slightly less than i used to
GREETINGS Hello there Sinister. Contact from me has been sporadic at best recently, which is (I suspect) just how you like it. Still, Im overtired and feeling somewhat contemplative today, so I thought Id drop you a line. Just for the heck of it. WHAT'S YOURS? Someone said something about Sinister feeling like home. I thought that was interesting. Im not sure I agree with them entirely perhaps it feels a bit more like the local. Except, you know... bigger. I seem to think of and refer to Sinister interchangeably as something, someone and somewhere. If it were really one of the latter two, I dare say many of our lives would have been a little less confusing of late. NEWS Whats new? Im in a new city, in a new job, living in a new flat. I have a girl with whom Im involved newly living with me, whos new to the country. So, in summary, a fair bit. CONTENT Fairly obviously, I havent any. Im not particularly sorry, but I can pretend to be, if you like. CONTENT? Sometimes I think about happiness. It doesnt make me any happier, though. You know, Im pretty sure I can remember a time when if youd have asked me what I needed to be happy, Id pretty much list off all the things I have now: a place of my own, a decent job with decent pay, and someone to love. Despite life having been strange, unpredictable and bumpy of late, things seem to have come together surprisingly well. I wonder, then, why theres still so much to worry about, and still so much left to do? Does anyone ever get there? I could convincingly describe myself as either a reasonable success or a dismal failure, depending on my choice of terms. Some nights I cant sleep for worry, and tear myself apart for all the things Ive done or havent done. Other times I stop and look around me, and feel this quite genuine thankfulness for whats there. I dont suppose this is either interesting or unusual. Think of when youre running an errand for work on a sunny day. You dash past the people in the park, the people sitting outside restaurants sipping at things. How nice to sit there in the sun and just rest, you think. And you envy them. Then on your own day off, you sit and watch the people pass by, and your head is full of the things you have to do, and how far behind you are, and you shuffle in your seat and look at your watch, your diary, your phone. And you go. Or you go and drink. You wish you were doing less, but you wish youd done more. EXCUSES Sinisters been sort of quiet lately, so I thought itd be okay to ramble a bit for now. Ive been head down, bum up in this new job (no, its not THAT sort of job, you dirty perve), so I havent been pestering you lot very often, or hanging about being foul-mouthed in #sinister all that much lately. Things have changed an awful lot around me, but you know I still read your messages every morning. Some of you make me think, some make me smile, and others make me grind my teeth. I wouldnt have it any other way. MUSIC I ordered that Polyphonic Spree record about a month ago, and it still hasnt arrived. Bugger. Has anyone heard the new Delgados or the new Apples in Stereo? Are they any good? Someone said that the new Reindeer Section record was good, but I dont believe them. SPORT I think every pub in Melbourne has a Galaga machine, but I'm yet to find one with a dartboard. Has the world gone all topsy-turvy? I'm not dissing Galaga, mind, but I've got a hankering to drunkenly lob sharp projectiles across a crowded room, and without the proper facilities, that usually ends in tears. Mine, admittedly, but tears nonetheless. SHOUT-OUTS To Stevie T and Mark C (ask them about their new neighbour), and to Will Porter. Just because they're a bunch of handsome devils. Bulk love, -Vanilla Flavoured David. _________________________________________________________________ Protect your PC - get McAfee.com VirusScan Online http://clinic.mcafee.com/clinic/ibuy/campaign.asp?cid=3963 +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+
The latest reindeer section album is beautifully exquisite in every way. I hate drugs. I don't particularly mean cannabis and ecstasy and all that sort of stuff; I don't like it very much buit if you want to then it's your life. It's prescription drugs that have fucked me off. If somebody's hyper all the time, generally full of beans, but goes a little bit over the top and gets diagnosed as being hypermanic what is the point in giving them depresseants until they have to be signed off work for depression and start taking anti depressants? Where's the point in that, it's just fucking stupid any fool can see that (i did after all). This whole issue has been the scourge of my life recently, i feel like it's the one area where i don't feel in control of events. Not that i'm a control freak at all, but someone needs to be in control of everything, if noone's at the helm you'll crash into something eventually. Anyway, in other bad news, I missed the polyphonic spree on saturday night at the leadmill, gutted. And i've had to pay about £25 for a counting crows ticket just so that i can see gemma hayes cos I can't make her headline tour. And why don't any decent bands come to hull. Anyway, enough grumblings of a musical and medical nature. Toodle-oo.cDx __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Everything you'll ever need on one web page from News and Sport to Email and Music Charts http://uk.my.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+
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Christopher Devaney -
David Hewitt