hey-lo. today has been up and down, mainly up. it was a very good morning full of coffee and sunlight and list crushes.....*wink wink, you know who you are* until my brother called me and got a bit angry with me. you see, i live with his brother-in-law, who's name is ballad. now ballad is a nice enough person, a bit on the sloppy side, but thats no big deal. he does have some strange personality quirks that i've noticed: he doesnt communicate well at all. meaning that if he is hurt or offended by something you've done, he wont tell you, he'll just start acting really strange. anyway, long story short: the other night we're just sitting around talking and i happen to mention that ezra (my brother) isnt very happy living in chamberlain near his in-laws, cause he doesnt get along with his wifes dad and her whole family is in that small town and its such a clan-like atmosphere. now the whole time i'm saying this it just isnt occurring to me that i'm talking about HIS DAD, and HIS FAMILY, so i just continue saying how ezra is fed up living around those crazy people and so on..(cause they really ARE weird people). and of course he doesnt act like he's offended or anything (i really wasnt very mean or anything, just honest) he just laughs and agrees. so this morning my brother calls up and asks me if i said anything to ballad at all, and i said yeah, i told what i said and he got VERY mad at me....apparently his wifes dad is really mad at him, and her mom is crying about it, thinking that ezra hates them all and now about half the town hates him......all because of some half-hearted comments i said while i was half-drunk! now my brother is my best friend in the world and he forgave me after i apologized for about 30 minutes, vowing to repair the damage (i dont know exactly how i can yet) but i'm just so mad at myself for being so stupid...... rest assured i wont make the same mistake twice. *sigh* ----raw aka caleb ben ===== And when I'm lying in my bed I think about life and I think about death and neither one particularly appeals to me and if the day came when I felt a natural emotion I'd get such a shock I'd probably lie in the middle of the street and die I'd lie down and die ------morrissey __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Make a great connection at Yahoo! Personals. http://personals.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+