I'm a bit scared that I don't believe in love. I haven't been given a shred of proof that it truly exists, that it's not a lie we tell ourselves. I wasted a year and a half on a robot, shared everything with someone who was just going through the motions. There's this guy, see? Only I don't know if he's there, you know, like that. Twice it's been a lovely night, stars out and shit like that, and in the end it's just a friendly hug. Might as well have been a handshake. And he hasn't stopped me from obsessing over boys I have dubbed something ridiculous. There's Angry Eyes, Photo Major, Richie Tennenbaum, Two Shirts...the list goes on. So can I love? I love little things. I try to put more love into the world. Not luv mind you. I can't stand luv. Luv ya doll. Just makes me want to shudder. Last year I had the smile project. Smile at random strangers, I mean REALLY smile. The results were somewhat mixed. But there were the few who really responded, and that made it worth it. So now we're taking the smile project a step up. Telling people you like something about them. The other night it was just saying "I like your hat," but it made the guy so happy that I was inspired to turn it into another full fledged project. I'll let you know how it goes. In other news I have bought some tube socks and I very well may love them. The topic of this post is love, for those not following. I do love sinister. At least I think I do. I think uncertainty means it's true love. Kara www2.bc.edu/~brielman _________________________________________________________________ Add photos to your e-mail with MSN 8. Get 2 months FREE*. http://join.msn.com/?page=features/featuredemail +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+