does anyone else sit a stress over subject lines for a long time? i never know what to put. how to be intreguing and relevant? did anyone else recently get a sinister message from erica macarthur dated "dec. 26"? i thought that was really weird. did it take that long to go through or is the date on her e-mail wrong? hmmm... i was fascinated by mandee's little fact about sylvia plath's replacement. very weird. was there any sort of investigation into it? today i had a meeting with my prof for my mind and brain philo. class. it was great. we just sat and talked philosophy for nearly an hour. i'm writing my final paper on why we can't make a computer that thinks. so we were trying to figure out what makes us believe that other people and animals are thinking. i think in the case of people it's b/c i think so i just assume that other humans think. but animals, i believe that they think b/c they act. but then does that mean i should ascribe thinking to a machine that moves around in the world? anybody have any thoughts? in case anyone else had read Turing it's all in response to his test. i love having conversations about stuff like that though. i love philosophy. i left the meeting convinced that if i ever marry it will be to a philosopher. i know lots of people think you should be happy with having philosophical conversations with your friends but i don't see why i can't have that with a boyfriend. it's not all about romance and hugs and support . i don't see why i should have to settle. anyone notice how everytime i post it turns into some sort of rant about love? i keep trying to convince myself that i will be perfectly content to live my life without ever finding true love but i don't think i believe myself. i'm bitter that i put finding love at such a high priority. school ends monday. but tomorrow i have my last class. sigh. it's exhilerating to have no plans b/c i can do anything anytime. but i'm going to miss school. my self esteem rests in getting good marks and getting work done under pressure. i don't know what's going to happen to my self confidence when school is gone. i'm now beginning to understand why people do grad school. i'm scared that i would get rejected everywhere though. i also don't know if psychology is really what i want to do with my life but if it's not i don't know what else to do. anyway. ordered the belle and sebastian boxed set from jeepster. it shuold be here in a week. yay. whoever it was who said that their music is happy or sad was oh so right. maybe that's why i love them so. b/c when i am happy there is still always saddness just hidden away for a moment and when i am sad i know that it's not everything. coming home on the bus the other day there was the rudest girl. i got on by the university and some guy got on at the same time as me. there was a group of teenagers on the bus (about 16 i think) and i sat a few rows back on the other side of the bus from them. the guy sat across from them. this girl starts loudly commenting on how ugly his clothes are and how they don't match and how people in halifax don't know how to dress and just wear any old thing (needless to say she was quite the bootyhoe). then, she begins to loudly talk about how bad the guy sitting directly in front of her smells! she was saying how it was going to make her puke and how "somebody needs a bar of soap"! i couldn't believe it. obviously if i could her her the people she was talking about who were sitting right by her could too. i wanted to get up an scold her but i knew that she would just find that a funny story to tell people and it wouldn't make any difference in her attitude. then she jokes about tripping an old man. finally, i guess someone overweight got on the bud b/c she started saying how "somebody needs to go to the gym"! i thought it was terrible. and none of her friends stood up for the poor people she was mocking. i just told myself that someday it would come back to her b/c she was creating bad karma. anyway. i just found that really sad that someone would be so blatantly disrespectful. -di he who hates is to be pitied, but he who loves is to be pitied more -german proverb +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+