yesterday's wind was so dry and so bitterly cold that a warm drag of my cigarette felt significantly healthier than the fresh, unfiltered air that froze my lungs as i made my way up the hill to my first class. i just looked out the window, and today doesn't look much better. in the summer, i usually long for winter. in the winter, i don't long for summer but i do long to regain the feeling in my toes. i've had an exciting revelation. if i relate NUMBERS to WORDS, i am not half bad at mathematics. this occurred to me roughly fifteen minutes into yesterday's lecture. it was glorious. i sat there, beaming, as a shaft of exuberant light broke from the heavens, bathing my little desk in golden brilliance and engulfing me in a warm embrace. i could be mistaken, but it seems to me that the entire episode was accompanied by several passages of handel's "messiah." **a bit of family shame: my father, for as long as i can remember, has insisted that we listen to the "messiah" in its entirety on the way to my grandparents' house each christmas. over the years of restless cartrips (and brief engagements with various chorales) every member of my family has learned virtually every word and note of the whole damn thing, not excluding the complicated arias. when you know the words, it can be hard not to sing along...yeah. painfully lame. and almost creepy.. i can recall an afternoon...i must have been nine or ten, my brother being seven or eight. it was summertime, and we were in the car in the parking lot of pick'n'save (i cringe even as i type that most loathesome of names). okay i lost it. OH. in the car, listening to some vivaldi dad had put on for us and waiting impatiently for him (dad, not mister antonio v.) to emerge and whisk us away to a fun-filled afternoon at the whitnall botanical gardens. i loved to look at the roses, and my brother loved to chase the squirrels. dad must have been in the supermarket for half an hour. sometime during his absence, we grew restless and began belting out the hallelujah chorus over the strains of the four seasons. we were getting to a really good part (and quite enjoying the dissonance we were creating by singing one piece over another) when our father opened the car door. my little brother and i looked at each other, then stared at our dad and gleefully adapted the lyrics "...and we shall wait and we shall wait and we shall wai- ayayait AND WE SHALL WAIT FOR-EV-ER AND E-E-EVER!" my goodness. looking back, it's now quite clear that my present state of dorkiness is the cruel denouement of years of...dork training. right. class. love kirsten Care2 make the world greener! http://www.care2.com - Get your Free e-mail account that helps save Wildlife! +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+