Maybe if I hadn't just woken up. It's the second day in a row that I slept till almost 11 am. Blah Blah....that's all I hear from my parents and family these days....oh and the occasional....why aren't you doing something with your life? Or You need therapy (my brothers fav) or what about that talk we had about antidepressants...have you thought about it? Oh shove off.....that's what I say....actually I just say that to my brother. I have actually the past few days talked to my parents. I hit a point last week when I realized that I actually am depressed and have never been so badly so...ever. I can't even force a smile....I can't even function on a normal day to day level. And I think I have made myself this way...like I have used it as an excuse to hermit away inside. I have been able to fake it for a long time. But now I just can't fake being happy. Oh my......enough on that. Except that I wasting my summer away and my solace is in the Belle and Sebastian song....yes on everyone's least fav album. which might I plug here for a sec. I like TBWTAS. I really do. I like Tigermilk and Sinister and all the EP's except for Legal Man (don't be mad I just don't and I'm sorry). Infact I like them all for there own beauty..there are definitely songs that I thank God we have the technology of the skip button. But I like "I spent the summer wasting" it's nice. So hmm....I don't know what else I can say. I'm sure there are many other things but I have lost my motivation. I'm going to cut my hair now. Please all be lovely and nice to animals...take time to smile and hold doors open for old people. Olivia +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+