I never thought of myself as the kind of person to get emotionally trapped in a relationship, but that's how i'm feeling right now. She's not seemed on top form for months, now she's broken down and having to see a psychiatrist. Suddenly i am her rock who cannot live without, despite the fact she has an annoying tendency to treat me like shit. But i know it's not really her treating me like shit, it's the drugs she's o. They're supposed to have calmed her down but they've sent her spiralling into a pit of despair if anything. I cannot seem to say much without it being misconstrued and thrown back at me, and it fucking hurts, whether it's the drugs talking or not. I can't leave her because she needs me, and i know all the bad things are just because she's ill. But I don't know if i can keep on pretending i'm strong enough to cope with it all. I feel like shit, and i'm starting to resent her, which isn't fair on her. I love her, and always will, but if she keeps throwing stones eventually one will smash the glasshouse. I missed Peel Acres. Shit. I am an idiot. Anybody willing to make me a minidisc or CD copy of it if you taped it, or know where i can download it off the net? I'll be your friend forever. Big Love, Dev __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Everything you'll ever need on one web page from News and Sport to Email and Music Charts http://uk.my.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+