"memory is not life and it's not love" came into play...i realized that i love things more in retrospect making them appear better and more pleasant than what they were...i suppose we all do...it's frightening to know that,

for me, i don't think that things appear better in retrospect but that when things do happen in my life, which is so rare, i'm usually so stunned that i'm afraid i'm losing things that i won't be able to retrieve. i wonder how stuart murdoch loves. a while back there were some biblical comparisons which reminded me of a line of thought which i had been persuing earlier, namely, how various band members should be identified with characters in this novel called lord of the flies that i had to read in school long ago and i couldn't make up my mind whether stuart ought to be identified with simon or with ralph. it's touching that one of stuart's favorite writers appears to be c.s. lewis on account of the fact that he's not at all fashionable in the way writers like kafka are (though the attention these writers receive is not at all undeserved) and it makes that odd spiritual almost ascetic side of stuart make sense. of course, it's really silly that i'm making all these conjectures about a person whom i know only through their songs, the one or two lines that he spoke on the chat session on the jeepster site, and the photos...i always thought it was slightly odd that in the photos from the web site of the fan in washington dc that in the picture in which they appear together, that they should appear so separate. he doesn't appear unfriendly, but i don't think he's someone who would casually put his arm around you. +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the reborn Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". WWW: http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+