Well hello there my sinister chums I'm bored at work and thought I'd try posting, not sure if this is going to work as I haven't been receiving all of your posts lately, I'm suffering from sporadic sinister service syndrome or something. I was thinking the other day about an old teacher of mine who was a good Christian (oxymoron anybody?), he always used to say that if somebody burst into the room with a machine gun and threatened to kill him if he didn't denounce his faith then he hoped he would have the strength to tell the truth and acceptept being murdered. This got me wondering if there was any belief that I would rather stand up for and die rather than denouncing. Quite frankly there isn't, either I'm a coward or I just don't value my beliefs enough. Luckily I'm morally weak enough to not be bothered about this character flaw. Then a really scary thought struck me What if the gunman burst in and said he would kill me if I didn't let him leave with either my record collection or all of my books. Now the question gets interesting, no longer is it a life balanced against something as flimsy as a belief, but, two things vital to my continued happiness balanced against each other. How do you balance a life without Joy Division and B&S with a life without Ray Carver and Haruki Murakami? Can he not just take my girlfriend instead? In the end I suppose I would have to keep music and wave goodbye to literature, in the final analysis nothing I've read can move me as much as Love's Alone Again Or and nothing will mean as much to me as B&S's Expectations. I guess that that's why every now and then I delurk and write to you lot rather than a site for people who consider Haruki Murakami to be the greatest living writer (incidentally, in my humble opinion, he is). I guess that that's why you guys get to put up with my rubbish (or at least have to delete it) and I guess that one of the reasons that you do put up with posts like this is that you wouldn't be on sinister if music didn't mean so much to you too. So here's to music, we don't value it more than life, but I wouldn't give it up for any amount of money. love'n'hugs to all the poster formerly known as the narrow wizard so much depends upon a red wheel barrow glazed with rain water beside the white chickens (William Carlos Williams) Care2 Mail is new and improved - 100MB free storage! http://www.care2.com/go/z/100MB +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+