Saturday 26 February 2000 22:06 Dear people After suspecting that I'm the only listee who is in at this time on a saturday night, alone (well two children asleep upstairs), but alone in the sense of romantically alone,abandoned, apart, deserted, desolate, detached, forlorn, forsaken, isolated, lonely, lonesome, only, separate, single, sole, solitary, unaccompanied, uncombined and unconnected......OK, so I've got a thesaurus on my PC, I've also got a pizza in the oven and think I can smell it burning.....hang on, I'm gonna see if I can salvage it. Alright, so I've got a thesaurus, a Sainsbury's pepperoni pizza, three bottles of Spanish lager, 17 left of a pack of Silk Cut and a hope that the girls wont awaken until at least 8am. I now wish I hadn't looked up alone on the thesaurus - it makes for grim internalisation. So I could phone their mother, but she's probably getting screwed by her boyfriend.....yeah, I'll phone her......wait a minute and I'll let you know if I was right...........said she was in bed..going to sleep......! Don't get me wrong we have a very good relationship, it was our wedding anniversary yesterday, she dragged out leaving for five months of Hell and finally went two weeks ago.......the first week was difficult, but not as difficult as living together over the past months, and this week's been much better, and that's in some part due to a listee who's helped me through - thankyou. Any way......Music - and pain and love and loss and romance and tears.......and Christ this pepperoni hot, just off to the fridge to get another lager......that's better, but I can't finish the pizza, if any of you want it mail me and I'll post it on, although I think it will need to be wrapped in some kind of special packaging that has probably been developed by NASA for use on the Space Shuttle.....Sainsbury's pepperoni pizza, eat it at your peril. Ah, yes....better mention music. OK, so I'm not the only person in the world or probably on the list who's long-term (in my case nine years and two children) relationship has suffered from corrosion, in this case the chemical reaction was between her and someone she works with (sound familiar).........so I'm not saying I had nothing to do with this and that I didn't contribute to our demise, I just wont lay my failings before you unless pushed........ music, music, music..........so what got me through the last 5 months - here's a list, and if you ever find yourself similarly appraised try listening to......... 1. David Gray - White Ladder(album) - Please forgive me / Babylon / We're not right 2. ABC - The Lexicon of Love - the whole bloody album 3. The Smiths - The Queen is Dead(album) - I know it's over....and a multitude of others spread over albums 4. Gil Scott-Heron - Glory(album) - Lady day and john coltrane 5. John Martyn - Cooltide(album) - The cure / Same difference.....One World(album) - Couldn't love you more(the most amazing love song ever witten) 6. Japan - Gentlemen Take Polaroids(album) - Swing 7. Scott Walker - Sings Jacques Brel(album) - If you go away 8. The Cure - Wish(album) - Trust / Friday i'm in love / A letter to elise 9. Max Bruch - Violin Concerto No.1 (so romantic) 10. Eddi Reader - Dear John EP - Dear John (i can no longer listen to this song - maybe the saddest song ever written) 11. David Gray - A Century Ends(album) - Shine / Debauchery 12. Nick Drake - anything and everything 13. Sinead O'Connor - So Far... The Best of(album) - Nothing compares 2 U 14. Indigo Girls - Indigo Girls(album) - Love's recovery / History of us 15.Tom Waits - Nighthawks at the Diner.....the whole album 16. Joe Jackson - This Is It(album) - One more time / Breaking us in two 17. Van Morrison - The Best of(album) - Moondance / Brown eyed girl / Have i told you lately 18. Joy Division - Substance(album) - Transmission / Love will tear us apart (now this is on a par with john martyn's couldn't love you more) 19 Belle and Sebastian - do i really need to write the album/EP names - lots of stuff but especially - Lazy line painter jane / Seeing other people / Expectations / She's losing it / I don't love anyone / Photo jenny / Dog on wheels / A century of elvis ..............well there you go..........if you don't know much of this stuff and would like to, let me know and I will furnish you, courtesy of TDK with 90 mins worth. I feel much better now, thank you. Sweet dreams Colin "I've got a girlfriend with bows in her hair and nothing is better than that.......is it" (Talking Heads)...........well maybe one day. +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. 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