I am in a great way today...I feel good, I feel like a brian jonestown massacre song or something. whatever the human equivalent is to a BJM song is what I feel like. For the first day in a month...Actually, it came about around November. But today feels a little better, and I woke up feeling better and for the first time in nearly two months I realize that I am going to get better for the first time in nearly two months. The hard part is always waking up. And I did remarkably well at that this morning. I didnt even hit snooze my standard 8-9 times...I didn't hit it at all. And I will tell you what else, if I wasn't nearly 30 I would go out and join the cheerleaders...thought I am not really into jocks...and I think banging them is a prerequisite or something. Anyway, moving on...cause if I start disecting that mentality it will just bring me down. I hadnt realized that honey was a he, honey was referred to as "he" in a recent mail... with a sweet name like "honey" and i agree the boys are always 1 to 0 with us...i just figured honey as a girl. maybe honey is a girl? in the whole big scheme of things it doesnt matter, especially to me...i fight for the hemopradites (sp) anyway...and we hardly ever get figured into the war at all. but i am not going to rant on about that either...it will only depress me. i am up so early this morning...i am going to stop in for coffee at this little place near by...i never get to do this as i am always running late....but not today. anyway, there is this girl...and she has a crush on me...and she always makes my order so sweetly. and i dont have the nerve to tell her that i am not that sweet. i fear that she will stop giving me such great service. she makes the smallest small talk...and i could like her for that...but rats. i like boys for the most part. the irony of it is this...if there is such a thing as soul mates and that sorta jazz, then mine is probably a girl...and it would be ok. but i dont even believe in those soulful things anyway, so anyway. i think like a boy most of the time. and i do indeed flirt with this counter girl...but i flirt with everyone...i like to think of myself as an equal opportunity flirter. however, i dont think i am gay...and i guess by my age one would begin to know...though i dont think anything is wrong with it, it just doesnt float my boat or whatever. so, why do i flirt with this girl that probably thinks i am about girls? you got me. i cant think to much about this either, its just going to make me overanalyze the issue. by the way, per my last rant...i am waiving the introductory fee of 19.95 for anyone that wants to join KATA. we are a very cutting edge group...its not for everyone...only an elite few (convincing you through reverse psychology, i am.) both girls and boys are welcomed. i used to live next door to aretha franklins brother...i saw her in his back yard once. i said "hi aretha" and she waved. a clever moment all in all. no new CD's to mention...but I have been listening to IYFS on repeat lately. except at work, where i am listening to my very own "best of b and s mix deluxe" i have never heard the gentle waves. thoughts? suggestions? before i forget, why do people think matador sucks? especially when there are so many things out there that genuinely do. it just seems odd that people would think that out loud. have they done something horribly wrong? i never read up on that sort of thing...i just buy music...and i know a lot of music that wouldnt be available to me outside of matador...so i am rather thankful. but i would still like to know about that loud mouthed girl in someones post saying "fuck matador" (hee hee) hmmmm...anyway. well, i need to shower and look presentable. ah. life of the working class. have a great day. i think i will too. +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+