it's like a bad movie or bad karma striding headfirst in a direction blind getting so far and not feeling accomplishment nature girl's in college cuz she was told it was best she doesn't know what she wants but she does know a diploma is what the world wants it'll give her freedom someday she knows it but she feels like she's an attraction at a zoo caged tired don't let small children feed her (grr) setting: history of communications 201 class "what is he talking about?" "god, he's dry...i wish he wouldn't try to sound enthusiastic, it just makes it worse..." i look down at my backpack stains cover the bottom of it it's been over the Pacific Ocean it's been on countless trains it's been carried up mountain tops it's been thrown in a tent on an island surrounded by water wherein the distance one could see unknown women washing their daily laundry and now look at it sitting in a corner of a classroom not gathering stains racking up miles not by going distances but by bouncing back n forth from home to class like a fuckin ping pong ball "....somethin somethin somethin...mass media," my prof stammers out of his pointy chicagoan- accented mouth. MASS MEDIA ~~~oooohhhh the word sends shivers down my spine~~~ how did i ever convince myself to get this far? setting: back in my room on my computer writing a tart post... well. i'm gonna eat some processed food now, full of preservatives and artificial flavoring. my sincere apologies for not being optimistic this morning. you know how it goes though, when ya just can't figure out what you want and you're already 3 years into a 4 year mess... it's like getting smashed at a party and realizing you would have rather gone bowling with your grandma instead. HERE'S AN ATTEMPT AT MAKING THIS A HAPPIER POST: :-D i'll work it out! everythin will be okay! smile! jesus loves you! buddha loves you even more! and then there's your mom and she's just a rocket of a gal...she loves you too! we all love you!!!! ahhh dear me great i feel better.... well, my delimma isn't really gone but, right. i wish you all the best o luck in all your endeavors this week. much love, ---your mountain mama sweetheart X come and sit on my knee twist around my back and fall off the bench tumble till you stop and laugh again sunshine shadows glisten in your eyes it's coming, love and so are you ***Sometimes you get shown the light in the strangest of places if you look at it right*** ---Jerry. http://www.care2.com - Get your Free e-mail account that helps save Wildlife! +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+