Yesterday I was walking from the Arts Tower after a seminar and I asked the person I was with if she knew what the dry slope skiing place was, obviously I didn’t phrase the question quite like that, that would be silly. But remember how long and arduous was my search to find out quite what that place was? I wrote about it earlier. Well she turned and looked at the hill and said “Oh, you mean the ski village?”. I was, like, so annoyed. It was a good seminar though - choice quote from one of the students went like this “Getting what you want is a positive result, but a positive result is not always getting what you want.” which I, naturally, found hilarious, though my giggling was caught short by the fact that no one else got the joke at all. Philistines. I want that quote on a tee shirt though, it encapsulates a great deal of my world view. Of course I’m sure what he said made perfect or near-perfect sense in his mind, I can hardly comment myself - how often have I rattled off some sentence which, at my end at least, is articulate, insightful and well constructed, only to have it meet with blank looks? Quite often. Trains are great. I can’t imagine spending the whole train journey stuck in the toilets with five other people, dreading every little bleep of the PA or shuffle outside the door. You just miss too much. It’s a shame. It’s so nice to be able to sit there and watch things unfold - distant fields pooled in sunlight through gaps in the clouds and the corpses of trees punctuating fields. And the architecture - the skewiff spire on Chesterfield Cathedral, the pre-packed non-buildings with mirror windows and rows and rows of identical cars in the carparks. Mondeos. My dad just bought a mondeo, our old car was cream-crackered so he bought that to replace it. He loves it. He’s selling our old red fiesta which wont pass its MOT in the bargain pages on Friday, only cheap if you’re interested, it’s the welding that’ll cost he says, so if you could do that yourself you’ll be in for a bargain - four good tyres and a newish battery on it. On the way back into Birmingham you go through a place called Castle Vale, or you do on the way back from Sheffield anyway, and as we passed through there, through the pillars holding up the road I could see the place where I used to have hockey training two years or so ago, and since it was a Wednesday afternoon, the people training there would have to have been people from my old school. Imagine those poor souls, out there on the sandy Astroturf (and hey, Astroturf is a proper noun now!), freezing hands, blunted as their sticks. I don’t think even I can properly appreciate how glad I was to give up hockey when I got the chance. But it was good to see that I suppose. You know I’d love to tell you more about being made to play hockey when I was fifteen, how I asked the PE teacher if I could quit because I wasn’t any good and I hated it and then next year he put me in the school team! My school had a history of losing hockey matches. Not deliberately though. I used to avoid the ball, there was an art to that, it was noble in a way, I was making a comment. A couple of people posted about chess the other day, I much prefer chess to hockey - the competitive element never really bothered me, it occurs to me that much of life has that to it, your average conversation has those undertones. When I was in the cubs I won the district chess championship once, and then got hammered in the counties, that’s what things were like. I got to keep the trophy for a whole year which was good, we had it on the dresser in the living room. Chess is great. A bit of a moral tale for you now, just the other day the University English Department saw fit to hand out leaflets to all the students about the dangers and moral implications of plagiarism, how bad it is and how bad it will be for you if you get caught at it. Usually I don’t take much notice of these things but the text was worded in such a way that it hinted towards an ‘and worst of all you’ll be cheating *yourself*’ conclusion, though wasn’t quite ungainly enough to use that particular phraseology, which made me think about back when I was in year nine at school and we were studying Shakespeare’s Julius Caesar for our SATS (to American’s reading this English SATS are, from my rudimentary knowledge of the American educational system quite different from the ones which you will be familiar with, I wont go into detail here though, there are bound to be websites). SATS at the time were a relatively new proposition (in fact we might have been the first year to do them, don’t quote me on that) and back in 1998 a grammar school like mine, precariously placed amongst the newish new Labour government was keen to do well, to affirm its status, to show other schools what we were made of. And we did, as it goes, this story has a protracted happy ending some months after the actual ending when we take the exams and the results are published and then later when the grammar schools don’t get shut down by Labour, though that might not be the happiest part about it really. So in English we were drilled by our mimsy teacher on Julius Caesar, and specifically the two scenes which we would be examined on, which if I recall rightly were Act III Scene II, where Anthony makes his famous speech, and another in Act V, which I can’t remember anything about at all. Up to the point where this story takes place I really liked our English teacher then, I think she left a year or so afterwards which was a shame, but if we take the story as starting here then I, though quiet and quite straightforward in my essay writing at this point, did have the seed of an admiration for her occasional strayings into the unorthodox - I remember another time that year when she was teaching us John Wyndham’s ‘The Crysalids’ and she, almost as though the class, which was I shall add, some thirty odd fourteen year old boys, launched into a lengthy, impassioned diatribe about the sort of stereotypes that she felt women were unfairly expected to live up to. All of which seemed wholly strange to my own fourteen year old ears, but strange and intriguing. So the story starts then with us being set an essay on Julius Caesar to do for homework, which I and everyone else duly did and handed in. A week or so later we got the essays back - I can’t remember anything about the details of what the essay was about, or how I fared or how any of my friends fared, what sticks in my mind is that after the customary period where everyone compares marks and comments our teacher quieted the class and asked one boy if he’d mind reading out his essay, as it was a fine example of the sort of writing we should be doing in our exam and an excellent answer to the question. The boy, who was a clever kid, one of those whose report card would have decent marks across the board, everything from chemistry to art, which wasn’t really so hard in year nine, but he got a grudging respect for it from us all, which might have had something to do with him being good at football too. Not caring for football I also remember not liking him much myself, though that wasn’t solely to do with the football thing, he was arrogant I thought, and I think I was right, he still was when I last saw him, perhaps still is. At the teacher’s words he blushed though, seemed reluctant, “What mark did he get miss?” asked someone, “Oh, an A of course” she answered, “perhaps I could read it out then, would that be better?”. He still didn’t look too keen, but he could hardly refuse and so the book was handed over. You know that reading voice that English teachers tend to have? A sort of tender tone, never mocking or snide, with gentle, unforced inflections - she began to read his essay in that tone with nary a pause or stumbled over word to disrupt the flow. We listened. Begrudgingly I gave him credit - his prose was certainly very adept, very mature and slick, quite professional sounding, and his points were concise and fairly insightful, backed up nicely with choice quotes from the text. It was a good sounding essay. Some people were even taking notes. I thought that was going a bit too far. Now, there were other kids that I disliked in my class at school and one of them, a particularly cruel boy, gawky and ungainly in appearance with a real malicious streak to him happened to be sitting on the same table as I was in this particular lesson. As the reading continued he seemed to be suddenly finding this nice essay highly amusing, I glanced up at him to find him looking at a copy of the York Notes for ‘Julius Caesar’ - you know those awful guidebook things which take you by the hand and drag you through a text? He had one of those, I’ve never been too keen on those at all, even in year nine I knew how rubbish they were. But still, he was giggling away and looking at his York Notes, even nudged the person next to him and pointed at the book, following a line with his finger, that person began to laugh as well. I couldn’t fathom it, what was so funny? Well typically, as it tends to do the gossip soon spread across the table and then the whole classroom, the boy whose essay it was, who I then turned to was blushing profusely, unable to keep his eyes on one spot. Someone showed me the York Notes, it was open to the page covering the bit of the text we had to write the essay on, his finger traced along a line, the teacher’s voice coolly intoning the very same words printed on the page - he had copied them! And not just those! The whole essay was just that, culled directly and unedited from the notes, copied straight out into his English book. The classroom fizzed and popped with murmurs and comments, only the boy who had written the essay, or not written it kept silent, the teacher ignored us though and carried on right to the end, never raising her meek voice one jot. As soon as she finished there was general uproar, people waving copies of York Notes around at her and pointing to various spots with grubby fingers. “Have you seen this miss?” came the cries, but she uninterestedly batted them all away, “I don’t care where he got his ideas.” she said. Some of us, not least the boy sitting opposite me, the cruel one, the one for whom the word schadenfreude might well have been custom built were outraged, up in arms, you mean she wasn’t going to change his mark? Give him detention? No, the grade would stand, that was the end of it. It was incredible! Even I myself felt a pang of injustice, I who prided myself on distancing from classroom politics. The bell went and in the corridors down to our next lesson, which I believe was French, all eyes and voices turned on the boy, some in ironic admiration, patting his back, others caustic and testy. I didn’t join in. To his credit he laughed them all off with as much good humour as he could muster, though he walked shakily across the playground towards French class and his voice did crack a little and he did blanche at the barrage of questions. I remember then in the following days in various conversations about how unfair it was that he had gotten away with this, and I couldn’t help but concur. It wasn’t until much later, maybe years later when the event was dragged up again, as it was with some frequency that I saw how well he had been punished, and how cruelly too. Read a year nine essay. Read a copy of York Notes. Of course our English teacher had, but how serious a crime is plagiarism? And does any crime warrant such a calculating public humiliation? “I don’t care where he got his ideas.” she had said, had grinned at our naïve protestations - how could she not know? How could she not care? We had thought. But of course she knew and cared far better than all of us. How easy it would have been to just tell him off, maybe give him detention for doing that, and maybe even tell him off in front of the class, warn us about plagiarism. But that would’ve been forgotten in mere minutes. Who could match her tiny voice, gently reading the sinful text out to the class? Someone picks up on a phrase that they recall reading in preparation from the essay, they pick up their York Notes to see if it was from that and find not just that, but the whole thing, a duplicate of what’s being read. He spreads the word, and when we tell the teacher she doesn’t care! Just dismisses it, he gets to keep his unearned top grade, while the rest of us worked significantly harder and probably didn’t do as well. Vengeance and justice had to be ours, our scorn had to take the place of the teacher’s, because she wasn’t interested. And it was a quiet, hurtful grudge that the class bore, which occasionally bubbled to the surface and which burned right to the core of that boy, minutes etched onto him and borne out through occasional looks, occasional comments. I’d like to say he was a different person afterwards, but he wasn’t, it doesn’t work quite as well as that, but almost, and perhaps for just a few minutes on the way to French class and then again whenever it popped up in conversation and he’d awkwardly laugh it off, or grin and say nothing, perhaps then there was a change. And that’s easily enough. - Kieran p.s. Sorry if I owe you email or anything like that, the above is to blame. 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