it does feel good to be brave. yes, and sometimes people surprise you.....sometimes you're expecting a scowl and a red face and a loud voice, and what you get is someone who listens and asks questions quietly....and calls you "pumpkin." oh yes, pumpkin. no pie for me... thanksgiving....i came down with a bad headache around three o'clock and took to my room for the remainder of the evening. around five, my sister and my cousins and my puppy came pouring in and jumped on me in my bed and tried to wake me up, and i tried to be fun but my neck hurt just horribly so i stayed there under my blankets and had a strange dream about a white- haired girl who was constantly powdering her face. i think i went to high school with her, but never really knew her. it's funny, the things lodged in the back of our minds...i can't imagine why i dreamt about that girl. when i finally woke up, it was dark outside. i went downstairs and the relatives were all sitting around the big table in tweed trousers and wool sweaters, laughing and picking at the remains of the evening's feast...butternut soup and roasted potatoes, brined turkey...the candlelight reflecting off their rosy faces, off the wine bottles, off the windows. if i'd had a camera, i could have taken a nice photograph for an eddie bauer catalog. or bon apetit. something. i ate some green beans and a slice of bread and i had another beer, and then i was very full and the relatives all went home, and i thought about how holidays used to be such a big deal. i think they probably still could be, but not because they're holidays....you know? i don't know. today wasn't the best, but things are looking rather good. love kirsten Care2 make the world greener! http://www.care2.com - Get your Free e-mail account that helps save Wildlife! +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+