Have you ever noticed the effects that pigtails have on a person? A gene that only comes into play when your hair is tightened with two pieces of elastic must spark it off. Anyway, my hair is now long enough for me to have two teensy ones at the back of my head which, combined with my glasses make me look "damn cute" according to the Popkitten. They certainly contributed to my mood last night, or maybe that was just sparked off from going to see Josie and the Pussycats. I had a really boring day at work yesterday (it was the more boring of my two jobs which involved me placing 1000 labels onto 1000 pieces of paper and attaching tassels to pieces of cardboard * yawn *) so it was with great glee that I accepted the Popkitten's suggestion that we go out that night to the cinema to see something silly and then play DDR. She arrived with freshly dyed hair, wailing that she was ashamed to show her face in public because she looked like a Goth (Her hair was supposed to be bluey-black and just turned out to be black instead) so to cheer us up, we bought a big bag of sweeties and went to see Josie and the Pussycats. It was well ace! It had Oz from Buffy as a member of a really silly and highly amusing boyband. The bit when they emerge after landing in a Metallica gig made me giggle really loudly. Plus there was a really cute boy in it who looked like one of my old boyfriend's so that made me super-happy. I really pity anybody who sits in front of or behind me and the Popkitten in a cinema as we get really loud and silly and giggle and shout "Yey!" at stuff we like. After that, we decided to go and play DDR. DDR is aceness…I finally know what that evil seducer Ken Chu was going on about now. We played it three times, and I managed to lose my shoe halfway through dancing to "Video Killed the Radio Star." My little sister is ace at it, she's always there and can dance on a really fast track on super-advanced level or something. I however am crap at it. The Popkitten managed to get 37 combos. I only got 2. People kept watching us too, which was embarrassing, especially when my shoe went flying. Oops. For some reason last night, I kept smiling at everybody and everything seemed to be beautiful and alright in my world. It's not, it never is really. But for some reason last night, it didn't matter. It just evaporated into the air as me and the Popkitten skipped along the embankment of the dual carriageway singing Clinic songs, as I wrote a note to the waitress who served us at Pizza Hut to thank her for smiling at me and being lovely and that she really should go and play DDR next door because it rocks more than pop rocks. I sent silly text messages to the lovely James and ate lollypops and asked the people at the cinema to give me free posters for my new room. Perhaps the best bit about last night was the walk home. The bus stop near my house is only a two minute walk way, and when I got off the bus home from the cinema, Radiohead's "How to disappear completely" was on my discman. It's always been my favourite song on Kid A, and when I heard them play it in Oxford in the rain it was the most beautiful event of the whole evening. I was on my own, and it was a fairly clear night. You could see the stars peeping out in the spaces between clouds and the moon gave everything a gorgeous translucent glow. It was getting fairly cold, which gave the whole scene an edge to it, made it more real somehow. I always play my music on my discman loud, much to the chagrin of passengers on buses and trains, and last night was no exception. Thom's voice swoops down on you from afar, it ripples, it swells with volume and emotion almost to breaking point, set off beautifully with the accompanying guitars. It was the lyrics though that really got to me. I've walked down that road on the way home so many times and in so many different situations for years. I've skipped down that road, sang down that road, held hands with various people on the way home on that road, dreaded what was to come when I reached the end of that road…and it occurred to me last night that I won't be walking down that road to go home for much longer. I leave soon to start new things in a different place, leave the past behind as it were. "In a little while, I'll be gone…the moment's already past, yeah it's gone…" The music spread through me, it's beauty seemed to be a part of me. I watched the clouds drift by and counted the stars and realised how big the world was and how even though I'm going to a different part of it, the stars and the moon would always be the same, they would always be there. It reminded me of one night when I was talking to the boy in the tree on the phone and we both went into our back gardens to look at the moon together. Even though we were far away from each other, in different places and environments, we were both looking at the same thing and therefore in a sense we were together. All the way home I look to the skies and the stars and the moon. When I reach my house, I sit on the pavement outside, look at the sky and play the song again. I'm sorry this isn't Belle and Sebastian related…but to me it was beautiful. And if this isn't a list where beauty is discussed on a daily basis then I've obviously been reading the wrong posts. - - - - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - -- - - - -- - - - - - - -- - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --- -- - - - - - - - - Manchester picnic people! When, when when!! I'll be happy to help with the organisation of the whole thing so long as it is in the next three weeks. If anybody wants to email me about it with offers of help and hugs off list, then it would really be appreciated. It's obvious that there is a lot of interest in this thing, and why should London have all the pic-a-nic-ing fun? As for the end of the Indie-thread saga…hahaha…the powers of Doctor Photojenni triumph once again. Obviously Mr Chu, as evil as he is, has good taste and knows my weakness for Vodka and Red Bull. However sir, where are the maintenance payments for young Pika? Her DDR addiction is getting out of hand now, and I need to pay therapist bills and the suchlike * giggle * I'm a bit perturbed at the whole someone-on-list wanting to put me in car crushed thing though. I'm not that evil. No, honest. Love and Lollipops Cay xXx P.S. Jim, your post was absolutely lovely. It's always nice to know that someone sees the beauty prevalent in an often grey world. P.P.S. Hopefully I've got evil AOL 6.0 problems sorted out now. A heeeeooooggee huggle to everybody who helped me out and sympathised with the dire evils of AOL. P.P.P.S I just got my Benicassim photos back! 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