bugger me with a broomstick (not really), this uni thang is really quite spooky. i start on saturday, and instead of reading all the books i'm supposed to read before i go up, i've been re-re-re-re-re-rereading the trinity cambridge students handbook. and the the cambridge university students handbook, and all the letters that trinity have sent me. including the one from my college 'mum', bronya, which says 'please let me reassure you that NO mistakes have been made.. you ARE supposed to be here.. really'. but i'm thinking, 'bollocks, they're all clever, i'm thick as pigshit - heck, i'm so fucking stupid i can't even remember to tune into university challenge, let alone get any of the questions right. i'm just in because i went to a posh school and i can bullshit well.' does everyone go through this when they're preparing for university? please, supportive words much needed. i'm starting to suffer from notsleeping stress even though i haven't actually got there yet... poor (and yet unbearably lovely and missed) natasha had to put up with me being awful when she came down to london at the weekend, because a lot of the time when i should have been thinking about snogging her i was in fact thinking about that awful day less than a week away... PLUS i'm completely broke having spent all my money that was saved up for uni on my phone bill to cyprus/ internet, and so i'm going to be starving to death... FUCK EVERYTHING TO DO WITH HARD WORK AND BAD THINGS LIKE THAT. oh well, enough of that. sorry i haven't got another paranoid story about my life, genevieve - i'm too stressed out to notice the weirdoes next to me on the bus at the moment. nick - send me that tape and cd when you're finished with them, and all that smiths stuff you'd say you'd do me too. does anyone feel like a farewell to the summer of lurve drink at the spreadeagle on friday night? unfortunately i won't be able to make strange fruit due to starting uni the next day, but a pint or two with all the people i've come to know and love from the london picnic massive would be grrrrreat! right, off to bed and nightmares of my future tutors drinking my boiled blood for breakfast... oh, and i found out today that my e-mail address at cambridge will be mjmo2@cam.ac.uk from saturday, so if anyone wants to contact me (yeah, right) that'll be where you can find me. i don't worry about death - i'm much more scared about the idea of academic work... love to all, Marcus XXX ps. i too know which is the best smiths album, and i'm not telling either ;) +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the reborn Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". WWW: http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "jelly-filled danishes" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+