my heart hurts today. it was one of the most beautiful days i've seen in months, and i turned my face to the clear blue sky and i cried because i couldn't understand. i went for a few beers to clear my head...i don't think it helped. everyone had blank expressions on their faces, and nick drake played as a soundtrack to the silent pictures on the television. there was a girl on the news...about my age. covered in blood. i shouldn't have been able to go out for a beer, anyway...but nobody cared. we walked down the street and two kids came running over with a camera, trying to make some sort of documentary and asking us what we thought. i didn't say a word...i just wanted to hide. we went to the record shop and people were standing around yelling at each other, and trying to listen to jazz to ease their minds and smoking cigarettes in the shop, which you're not supposed to do. nobody said anything, though. my dad looks so sad...i've never seen him this way. and my mom...she looks terrified. it's making my stomach turn. i had to stop for gas on the way home...and the roads were covered in cars stopped dead waiting in line at the stations. people lined the streets waving american flags and shouting. they weren't helping anything. a friend of mine just killed himself. i am still shaking. LOVE kirsten Care2 make the world greener! http://www.care2.com - Get your Free e-mail account that helps save Wildlife! +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+