Blake wrote:

Why? It's that painful thing known as song association. I just spent my xmas break laughing, playing, and dreaming, and now, i'm at school, and I'm depressed, and I miss my friends. All last month we'd be driving around, singing along to B&S, with the windows down, and the wind was everywhere. I can't imagine how bright the sun was those days, for it might have blinded me instantly if I had glanced into the yellow core.

Now, as I lay in my room, and listen to Slow Graffitti, I become a prisoner of my own sadness. It's all I think about--how it used to be, and how I wish it was again. The fault doesn't lie with B&S, but rather, with me. My own legion of sadness comes from this association with B&S--happiness. I think that's why they make music in the first place.

Yeah, yeah, I know exactly what you mean, but but but!!!! There's a really good way of looking at this as well. If listening to Slow Graffitti totally churns your head at the moment, because you associate it too much with time passed, that means that song is burned into your head, it's part of your memories of that time. And, hopefully, in five year's time, you'll listen to it and be totally transported back to your bright sun shining/car driving/wind driving xmas break of 1998/9. Which is a lovely thing to happen. I do it all the time, there's loads of records that are really heavily associated with certain great eras in my life, and even now, old and decrepit and revolting as I am, all I need to do is hear, say, 'Strawberry Wine' by My Bloody Valentine and I'm back there again at THAT PARTY when I was 17 and we sat in the garden at dusk and we got drunk and I snogged... Enough. It was just totally magical stuff at the time, you know when you're 17 and the whole fucking world is in technicolour and everything, your emotions particularly is so fucking VIVID... ...and the ability to relive it at will is just... just, you know? Then he said:

Has anyone wanted to tell someone honestly how much they mean to you? But you didn't for the reason it might sound silly, or sad, or strange?

I've just discovered that I should have done exactly that with someone two years ago. Great. Happy new year. Life pisses in my soup once more. What's all this about Hefner bloke doing a solo gig next week? Where's the Poetry Cafe? Is it a private party? Can I come? Lousie Stanley wrote:

check out "Rising for the Moon" by Fairport Convention - especially track 8, "Dawn"

It's good, yeah? Fairport were my band of the Summer - 'Unhalfbricking'! 'What We Did On Our Holidays'! Leige And Leif! - but I never got any further than 1970 with them, so I never heard the later stuff Sandy Danny did with them.You're right, her voice is just beyond belief. I've never heard anybody sing like that in my life, it's just so totally perfect, totally pure, clear... I think 'angelic' is the word I'm groping for. And does anyone around here like John Martyn? I don't think Belle And Sebastian are going to win a Brit. Time for RIsing Damp. Take care, Alexis xxxx +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list please mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". For list archives and searching, list rules, FAQ, poor jokes etc, see http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +---+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" +---+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+