I must say everyone's courageous non-lurking has been inspiring. I don't feel like I should really give a backstory here, since no one would remember anything I've posted, and I'm not a long lost Sinister celebrity or anything. Ken Chu did sleep in my room once though, if that counts as a brush with fame, which I believe it does. Summer started early this year as a twinkle in my eye and a bounce in my step, only a few weeks into spring. I was full of hopes and goals and dreams of all the things I would accomplish this summer, all the people I would meet, and all the free things that New York City has to offer in the morbidly humid months. I seem to have blocked out the fact that as soon as you walk out the door, you've spent $20 on bottled water to keep the dehydration and heatstroke away, and you just want to cry and stomp your feet because the subway car you got on has no air-conditioning suddenly, and you're blinded by sweat. Okay, so maybe I'm exaggerating a little bit, and maybe I'm being a little "glass half-empty" here, but deep down I'm really sad to see summer dwindle away, all while feeling like I've been sitting in the house for 2 months. The 2 weeks before Labor Day (Sept. 5th) always seem rushed, like you're trying to cram in all these activities at once. I just turned a quarter of a century old, but I don't feel any different. Okay, so I had a mini nervous breakdown about not knowing the direction of my life, living in a city which is beyond my means, not knowing why I stay here, but not being able to leave, etc. I'm super excited about the picnic in the Cloisters tomorrow, I will be bringing super luscious cheese and bread, and I have to ponder on the fact that I don't think I have red knickers. I might need to go shopping! I wish we could have a huge picnic, sort of like a down south family reunion in the forest preserve, and get t-shirts made with some cheesy font and logo, but geography doesn't permit that. I love you all, and I've read every email that's ever been posted on here in the 4(?) years I've subscribed. Even though I haven't participated much, I plan to change that. angela +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+