this must be one of the most diverse classes i have ever had. granted the name is 'literature of ethnic america' and all, but should the topic of the class describe the students who take it? most of the students, when i look around, are white, but there is a deep mixture of minorities. a chinese girl, who speaks mostly broken english sits way up in the front row. i can tell she is very intelligent. she never talks about bull shit from china, or similarities between them and the united states or anything like that, she always talks about 'people'. it makes it easy to see that nationalities are just classifications, people are people are people anywhere you go. there is an older man from lebenon (who also sits in the front row), hes about 40-45 id say. also he is very intelligent. his english (although he still has an accent) and his vocabulary are better than most anyone i know. i have terrible english. i swear and stutter and fumble over words all the time. its kinda humbling for someone who grew up speaking a different language, to speak it so much better than i. there are also a few coloured students in my class. please dont think i am prejudice, i just find this interesting. now, i went to predominantly white high school, and seldom had a class with coloured students. having been going to college (university) for 4 years now, im still getting used to it. the curriculum for the class includes a few books by black authors (toni morrison, ernist j gaines...) , and a lot of the subjects deal with poverty, prejudice and slavery. i often wonder what the black students think when these issues are laid out in class everyday. i am also embarrassed when the book reads 'nigger' and we have to read it out loud in class. am i the only person who feels this? i really dont want people to think i am prejudice, i really, really am not. before class started today, a lady from mexico (she states all the time that shes from there), who also by the way sits in the front row ( i sit toward the back) was talking about her tax returns. now, it was real quiet in the room, and she was talking real quiet so only the person she was talking to could hear. heh heh. i wanted to speak up and say, "dont bother whispering, we all can hear you." i know i could hear, and i think i have poor hearing, so im sure everyone else heard too. theres this girl that sits way on the opposite side of the class. i quite possibly could be infatuated with her (it takes me a while to know) she is always dressed really well, and i think she may have a lot of money (not that i really care), but she always looks nice and clean and smart. aarrggg my prof is making us move to the front of the room, now im surrounded by people i dont really like. there is this other girl that kinda sits near me who has new sneakers. she keeps sticking her foot out and posing them so she can get a good look at her new kicks, how annoying. this one guy that always sits near me always sleeps, when hes not though, hes always talking about his band. "were going to be the first band signed off the internet", he blurted out today to his friend. he looks like the kind of guy whos in some PANTS rock/rap band with the likes of limp biscuit or something. im very green over this guy. i want a band, i dream of it all the time. although i cant find anyone who plays anything ( i play guitar and can sing fairly well), or who likes the same music as i. ggrrrrr so im a little envious, who cares? theres this other guy, he thinks hes sooo smart. his voice is kinda high pitched and annoying, and he always tries to make these connections of things in the book and real life. they hardly make any sense, hes soooo annoying. i think his voice is a large part of it. my prof is like 30 years old, she isnt that attractive or anything, but she has a real nice personality. so, on the first day of class, i decided to seduce her ( i would never do anything, i thought it might be fun to try and disrupt her teaching everytime she looked at me, and saw me gazing at her [do i use too many commas?]). i know im attractive, and am rather high on myself as well. but its a good high-on-ones-self, a healthy one, either that or id be dead. so anyways, for like 4 class periods i never took my eyes off of her. much to my demise, nothing ever happened. perhaps im not as appealing as i think. im an unusual person, i know it, i kinda cherish it. but looking around this classroom, i dont feel so unusual, everyone is weird. it kinda depresses me. this is my cue to be even stranger. has anyone else fallen in love with any of the characters from the beautiful belle and sebastian songs? i relate to them well, i wish they were real people (perhaps they are?) i would look for them, and say "hey, im just like you!". thats all for now, my prof just said orgasm, i think i should be paying attention. haa haa haa another 4.78 minutes lost to me....sorry..... jason the homo/heterogeneous +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. 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