this is my first post so eeeek please don't frighten me... i'm only ickle... this post will probably be of no interest to anyone, so i won't be offended if you hit delete now... i was going to wait till i had a real b & s moment to talk about before i posted, but that got me thinking, what would be a good enough moment to post about? so i thought and i imagined and i dreamt and before i knew it i was sure that on saturday night i was going to meet the mystery girl i'd been bumping into of late and summon up the strength to talk to her... anyway, i half knew the mystery girl (and had a big crush on her) about 4 years ago... i later found out that she'd had a crush on me at the same time, but by then i was going out with one of her friends (eeek i know...) after that i didn't see her for years. she stopped going to the place where we'd met and disappeared completely. but in the last few months i've seen her 4 or 5 times and every time i've just managed to stutter a 'hi' and that was about it. it turned out she was working in a shop in leicester, but now the shop's closed so once again i have no way of finding her... i'd only ever seen her once at a club and that was new year's eve at leicester's indie club so i was hoping that she'd be at brighton beach (a once far-too-rarely northern soul night) yesterday. i even kinda felt sure she'd be there (i think i've been listening to far too much b & s and gentle waves; it's turned me into a smiley heap of loved-up niceness...- does that count as content honey??) and i had this dream that the dj would play a b & s record early on while the dance floor was still quite empty and i'd go to dance and i'd see her in front of me... now this dream was not only unrealistic because the girl probably wasn't going to be there, but because the dj had never (yes NEVER) played any b & s. i'd been dancing for a while when i heard those guitar notes, that downwards arpeggio gubbins those drums... yes it was... OH MY GOD... yeahhhhhh... she was playing legal man, for a boy who'd never heard any b & s in his home town this was a tad on the exciting side... for a moment i forgot my mystery girl and the excitement took over, but later, sitting in the other room, watching the dancers dancing into their own worlds i remembered. there was the song, where was the girl? suddenly everyone was a couple. they all looked very sweet (my cynicism died when i first heard photo jenny) but where was the girl i was supposed to be with? alak.. i'd even brought my camera to take a photo of her, my photo jenny (she's not called jenny, but i'm not 100% sure what she is called so she's been renamed in my head...) and that was it my un-belle-and-sebastian-moment... alone, calm, happy, yet dissapointed, broken... well anyway... there's my story... i'm impressed you're still reading =) i'll let you escape from me and my broken-hearted whingeings now byeeeeeee love n hugs tom xxx p.s. i loved joan of dark's last post :~) s e a c f p /---\ e m a i c q # 5 3 s e a e p h c f p | C=| t i c i c q 1 0 7 e p h p e a c f p \---- c o m i c q 6 4 3 p e a +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+