In my 20th year I discovered I was everywhere I wanted to be and apparently that was nowhere by greater standards. I studied film for a few years becuase everything else was bullshit and I decided at least I could watch movies, only to then become a philosophy major. So here I am, next year I will graduate and be thusly thrust into a world that apparently doesn't care for my type, a songwriter by nature since I was a boy, early on I realized not that that would take me nowhere but that the majority of the people that it does take anywhere are completely false, made of fake parts with "images" and what not. No one really cares for the trueness of a songwriter, one who doesn't care if you like it but hopes the more you listen that maybe, just maybe you will connect with that human aspect that seems to be far lost in much of todays, art, music, whatever, no one wants reality and truth, we'd rather look at someone we could never be and if we were, we would most likely hate being. So I took to philosophy, big deal, no chance I can help the world as it is too far gone, I just want to prepare myself for whatever is next but in the meantime I can't tell if I'm wasting my time or not? Many seem to think I am but I feel released from so many of the standard rules of the world that I must've gotten somewhere, nonetheless it hasn't much helped my work ethics. So I ask of you all a favour, if there is any of you that is happy, or even satisfied, doing something you love or respect or anything of that sort, please send me some advice. Unlike everything I've been told I know there must be careers, jobs, whatever out there that are skewed from the center so that people like me who can't accept the big 15 (business, marketing, etc...(Cog in a machine work)), can continue our searching and not be too miserable or bored along the way. I guess I'm asking the little guy, the minority to tell me what he does for a living, because to some degree we all have to do something to eat, so there must be some other options, I would love to hear any of these options at all, Give me some ideas because the 15 that have been presented to me leave me little hope. All I need are some ideas of what I could do that wouldn't kill me. Lucas James Lucasjames@bolt.com ------------------------------------------------------- Bolt. Everything you need to speak your mind, hang out, hook up ... whatever. Tagbooks ™, Bolt Notes ™, message boards, personality quizzes, photos, free stuff and lots more! http://www.bolt.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+