hmmm, i feel like having an incestuous and brief love affair with a comleplete stranger, i think they call it a "one night stand", i tried it once and it was twnoml (or in the true sinister style TWINOMLETTE ie "the worst night of my life") We didn't go the whole way (thank fuck), he shat in my bed then made me make breakfast for him.hhmmm, should i be saying this? Do people still have one night stands these days? Do you? I haven't seen so many lurching lovelies on their way to drunkern shagdom of late, maybe i just go to the wrong (or right) places. I could put it down to getting older but that would be a gobshite excuse! So i AM getting older (which is a truely absurd thing to say because you can't do anything but)and lately i have been learning lots of new things about myself, does that sound a bit obsessed? Some things about me are good and others are just so horribly far away from what i want to be that i just can't stop trying to change them. One trait of mine is the inability to take myself seriously, this is why i can't write songs, i get to the lyric stage and just cringe and curl up in embarrasement at any small incling of showing emotion. Even now i am cringing at this e-mail because i am talking quite honestly about how i feel. It's quite exciting to learn new things about yourself but it can be frightening too. By that i mean that if you take all the things that you hate about YOU and try to change, then think of yourself 12 years on with the same bad traits it's quite weird. I may be coming across as being pathetic/depressed but i am neither, it's just about the little things i think of when the light goes out. er yeh, i haven't seen any sini crew for months and i keep missing the london meet ups coz my e-mail access is limited, but next time i gonna chuffing know about it. A good friend of mine told me he thought the idea of a bunch of B&S fans getting together was just horrific, calling us a bunch of saddos who just want to get closer to the band. I argued my point. He squished his face up. I have not been able to look at my friend in the same light ever since. love hannahb " there is no dark side of the moon, it's all dark really" _________________________________________________________________ MSN Photos is the easiest way to share and print your photos: http://photos.msn.com/support/worldwide.aspx +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+