I saw that in town testerday. I'm sorry that I'm mailing again, but the biology teacher said that we didn't need to bother going to class, so I am checking my mails again. 100. bugger. I saw a program the other day about nature and nurture. It led me to wonder about why I like b&s. Or, more specifically, would I have liked b&s if it weren't for certain experiences which I had gone through. I'm not saying that I like b&s music because of the "scene", and things associated with it. I like it because it is some of the most beautiful music that I have ever heard - I can bring tears to the eye, or a smile to the face, it can be uplifting, or gorgeously empathatic. At primary school people would make fun of me. It was only names, and the occasional punch, but when you have to suffer this from the age of 7, it can be bloody horrible. I didn't have many friends, as I was quite a quiet boy. Then, on moving to secondary school, I had gained a reputation as an easy target. People stared jumping me, beating me up, you know, and some stuff was really frightening. Say, on time, an 18 year old and his cronies decked me because one of their little brothers said that I was a cunt. I was 13 at the time. Another time I was stabbed because I had seen a guy dealing drugs in the pe changing rooms. I had my nose broken 4 times, and numerous beatings. This went on till I was about 15. On average I was attacked about once a week. It wasn't fun. so, for about 8 years, which is about half my life, I had suffered at the hands of other people. I don't think thatb it was through any fault of my own - I never provoked anyone - althogh I was sometimes told by people that I should have hit them back, but I wouldn't as I don't believe in violence. I once took the "turn the other cheek" thing literally, and ended up with a severely bruised face. anyway, this lead to me having a severe lack of trust in people. And I figured that the people who were tormenting me were really poular (which they were, for some reason) and also really stupid. so I sort of equated these facts to come up with the crystalballs theory : popular people are stupid and cause pain. therefore poular culture is stupid, and followed by fools. people who are popular in wide circles follow popular culture, so to find decent, intellegent, kind people, look at non popular "scenes" (I0 hate that word, and don't consider myself to be part of any scene, I don't believe in scenes, which sort of defeats my argument) the following generalises a bit, so beware posible scenes - moshers - smelly, don't like the music junkies goths - scary, tend to do it for attention ah - glasgow indie, and other ascociated types of music. really nice people, happy to listen to beautiful music, do not strive for attention, kind people. added bonus - music is fantasticly lovely. but I'm not doing it for the scene. I'm quite a quiet guy I think, not many people at school know who I am, and most who do beat me up at one point or know me beacause I'm tall or because people pronounce my name "melon" and make jokes about my mum having big melons. I have to say, I haven't met anyone on the list. But I think that my assumption was correct - really nice, caring poeple like really beautiful music. hope I didn't bore you. I meant to say other things, but I've been writing for so long that I've forgotten them baby chris CRYSTALBALLS ____________________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Get your free @yahoo.co.uk address at http://mail.yahoo.co.uk or your free @yahoo.ie address at http://mail.yahoo.ie +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the reborn Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". WWW: http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "jelly-filled danishes" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+