And now i REALLY wish i hadn't. He helped me find my bag when i was too drunk to see and cut my finger. He kissed it so i tried to kiss him but he was having non of it. He just looked at me as though i had crawled out of a drain. After walking off i heard his mate say "yeh, but shes got a nice arse though", and since then everything has gone downhill. In the last week i have gone gooey about a guy who i dont know, i havent felt like this for ages and i don't know if it is a good thing, you know, going red when you see him in the library and waiting in the bar, hoping he will turn up, it's all bit sad. He wears cute jumpers but i don't know his name. I watched "dancer in the dark" and it was really beautiful and strange. I couldn't get my head round it at first. Having a mixture of harrowing scenes and then going into musical style was bizzarre but i understood why in the end. I cant listen to that album in the same way now, "107 steps" makes a lot more sense. I advise anyone who has the album but hasnt seen the film to see it NOW, but beware it might depress you. Rachel P mentioned the Brixton gig and i know it is a long way off but what shall we all do before and after??? Brockwell park is a 5min bus ride away and it's great (also near my house) so if anyone wants to stay afterwards??? Does anyone know any good bars in Brixton, i don't like that place much, it's soooooo hostile. Rachel P also asked how i'm getting on with giving up procrastinating, well this in itself is evidence that i am not doing too well at it although i did spend all night trying to mix and ended up wanting to throw my decks out the window. Hello to John K, i breifly met him at the end of a gig on monday and i have never had such a big hug off of someone i have never met before, so thanks. i'm off to try and find that guy, for the moment i will call him "alex" and make up lots of ideas about what he is like. love hannahxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x (i'd send you all one but it would take forever, maybe we should share them out) +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+