Re: Sinister: dont want acceptance, dont want tradition
Cripes!
I don't know how many of you were ever bullied at school for being different, but let me tell you from someone who lives with the consequences every day, that being in the separate little community that gets picked on for being different, it certainly FEELS like there is a big divide. Maybe it's not as evident in your school, or these days in general but ten years ago when I was in school, there was a bloody HUGE gap and I was way on the wrong side of it.
disturbing when people say that they would love to indulge the romantic notion of the geek/cool divide, like being a victim of childhood bullying is something to aspire to.
You've got me all wrong! No, I wrote it all wrong, I don't think being a victim of childhood bullying is something to aspire to, I was just trying to say i would like to look back and think it was a war of the cool vs the nerds, when it really wasn't, it was just a few people that picked on other people because they were different. I was bullied on and off mentally for three years until I found solace with a few other people like me and we stuck together. Over the years people changed and now some of the people that hurt me very badly at the start of senior school are now in my immediate social circle.
from what I went through, it just left me a bit of a mess and there's no fucking romance in that :)
It does leave you in a messyou're absolutely right, and you only realise when something like this reminds you of it, choking up bad memories. ugh. Mind you, as everyone says, those who peak at school spent the rest of their life trailing downwards... Erica x +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the reborn Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". WWW: http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "jelly-filled danishes" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+
For someone allegedly "articulate" and "intelligent" I don't half get things wrong sometimes! Erica wrote:
You've got me all wrong! No, I wrote it all wrong, I don't think being a victim of childhood bullying is something to aspire to, I was just trying to say i would like to look back and think it was a war of the cool vs the nerds, when it really wasn't, it was just a few people that picked on other people because they were different.
And all I can do is apologise (I'll mail you personally Erica, thanks for writing to me) and just remind people that this is a classic example of not thinking before you write and the way it can leave people feeling a bit bad about things. I realise that some things aren't as clear in print as they seem in your head, I'm certainly guilty of that some of the time, so to anyone who thinks I was being reactionary to Erica, I wasn't, well OK I was, but I read what she wrote the wrong way. It's just a subject close to my heart and I don't like it when I see it being dismissed or trivialised. I realise this isn't what Erica intended at all, it was just a misunderstanding, and it's all sorted out now (hopefully). Sorry again, I've been rather dull and if any of you want to talk to me off-list about the whole bullying thing, well you can. I'm sure no-one else really needs to read my public therapy sessions, I just needed to get it off my chest and I hope none of you think I'm craving attention, trying to fulfil an angst-ridden stereotype or any of the other things I probably seem to be doing. I'm just starting to realise that I don't have to feel shit about what happened to me when I was a kid, and maybe talking about it is some sort of catharsis and also it might help other people too. I realise probably no-one took what Erica said the way I did, and so all I was doing was talking bollocks and re-iterating a thread that has been done to death several times before, but I do think there is a world out there that exists beyond songs like Expectations and Lord Anthony and Misshapes. I'll leave it at that. Sorry for being so dull and stupid and reactionary and generally a bit rubbish. It's probably PMT. Ailsa xx +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the reborn Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". WWW: http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "jelly-filled danishes" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+
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