Sinister: isn't life too short for shyness...?
you arrive too late and get stuck with the broken chair at the table next to the toilet, and the music makes you wonder why you've brought your scarf along. you take it all in for a moment...you smell the irish coffee and the pipe smoke, you glance quickly at a sad girl reading tarot cards, crowds of laughing drunks, and scanning further you accidentally catch the eye of someone you didn't want to see. he sits down and looks you in the eye and fumbles with your lighter, and you notice the lines on his arms and he tells you he's dying, and for once he's being honest and you don't know what to say...you're not sure what to do.... kathy was a pretty blonde sorority girl, the daughter of the mayor of a tiny town in ohio. a town so small that kathy's mom and sister once made a trip to valparaiso, indiana to "go shopping." valparaiso had two boutiques and a walmart superstore. kathy spoke often of her hometown, of pageants and barn dances and the fourth of july picnic....it sounded sort of fun. everyone liked the stories, or seemed to anyway. and then one day, kathy said something strange. 'well, it's such a tiny town, and everyone knows each other anyway. there's really nothing else to do.' everyone stared. nothing to do, apparently, but have sex. with anyone, anywhere...the barn dances....the fourth of july picnic...it was sort of shocking. she gossiped for a bit about people none of us knew. fascinating stories about the sheriff, the postman, the cheerleading squad, the minister.... the boy is still talking, and you can't keep your eyes off those lines on his arms. he's from london, and now he lives here. you talk about getting away, and he says "noplace is any better, really," and you dislike him for saying so. you think of kathy.... you rent a room in an old farmhouse and you learn to make a pretty mean potato salad. you spend eight hours a day at the switchboard in some musty office, painting your fingernails and paging through a magazine. you glance at your reflection on the side of the file cabinet and sweep your hair over your forehead, and you sit up quite straight and suck in your cheeks. people often say you should model, and you sometimes wonder. you walk home at dusk in your little brown coat, and you push the door open and toss your purse onto the chair. you scribble a little note and some hearts on the back of a grocery receipt, you draw some arrows pointing and you leave it on the table. you draw a bubble bath and turn on the radio, you dim the lights...and you don't know the year but you're feeling old. you just smile and change the subject, and the boy finally goes off to finish his beer, and you duck behind the counter for some water for your tea. you light another smoke and you think '2001. that's the year...isn't it?' Care2 make the world greener! http://www.care2.com - Get your Free e-mail account that helps save Wildlife! +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+
I really liked kirsten kenyon's last one. and the ones before too. but the last one is the last one I read. and I really liked it. I did. do. some people said things about writing styles. I've seen trends. emerging. because that's that they. do. I'd sigh. oh. and they pass. too. I was going to leave off posting for a while. to say it. and. but I haven't. some people have said things about me. apps, ben [mister b]: 'So I keep it short. But not. As short. As richard. Gillanders.' calumn [PoP]: '(should there be a rule regarding minimum sentence length imposed on Mr. Richard. Gill. And. Ers. ?)' kenneth: 'I watched Atomic Kittens on CD:UK last weekend, I couldn't help but noticed that in one of their songs (the name escapes me), they managed to use over 30 consecutive single syllable words during a chorus. A literary masterpiece, or did they just copy Richard Gillanders?' [my favourite. although. it isn't about syllables. is it? but. my favourite.]. these are a bit not nice. well. like. I should be a figure of fun. hah. I don't mind... I thought I saw the velocity girl saying something much more nicer than anything anyone else had. but I can't remember where. now. I won't stop it. though. I was going to go to amsterdam on friday. the one coming. an [almost] arranged academic ambulation [almost]. but. ah. it seems like almost arranged isn't actually arranged. and our convenor wants to be postponing it until january. despite most of us having paid deposits. so. it was amsterdam or paris or barcelona. he said 'moscow' too. at one point. because the there was a special offer on flying there. but we won't. fly there. umm. if I went to amsterdam on friday. I'd miss out on the NATIONAL POP LEAGUE on friday. and I don't want that really. and I think smog are playing when I'd be away. and the beta band? well. maybe it's for the best if we don't get to go. I like one of my tutors for this year. a mister gerry grams. or gramms? I forget. but he's good. has an attitude. is a dude. hm. if people say nice things about you and seem to believe them but you know they're inaccurate or not at all deserved. well. no. and you don't really feel like you like the person who has said them. should you feel worse because of these, seemingly, complimentary comments? or. something else. if I were ever to be idolised by anyone. I hope it'd be by someone I idolised. also. or. at least. liked. but. I don't think being an idol would be all that great. a bit of a Shock To The System. and I couldn't be bothered bleaching my hair all the time anyhow. oh, it'd be easy to be an idle. it is easier. I like the FRUITLOOP's posts. commentary. without dissent. right? yeah. that's right. preferable. no. I like them. they refresh. and all. she has a nice niche. to fill. [pronounced 'neesh'. of course.]. [not 'nitch'.]. but sometimes. when I'm reading. it feels like I'm writing. I had imagined there was more than there is. bye. __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Everything you'll ever need on one web page from News and Sport to Email and Music Charts http://uk.my.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+
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Kirsten Kenyon -
Richard Gillanders