Hello, sinisterines! Hi there for the first time, since I've been given a voice in the very last days.. I've been reading through all your postings during my improvement-time, and, first of all, I've noticed that I should improve my english, you know, since I have some problems with lots of stuff you wrote. So, I guess I must apologize for any mistake you could find in my messages, from now on. You know, I had a sad dream last night... I dreamt I was so old and so ill, I was stuck in a wheel-chair, and I was feeling so sad, so terribly sad about being with nobody, while watching my friends, walking around me, and laughing, "Oh, stupid old kind of person, if only we could leave him here, he will surely die.. nobody will notice"... and I tried to move, I did my best to move, even my fingers... and I wasn't able to talk as well... So, I started crying, and then I heard that B&S song.. "Ooooooh, get me away from here I'm crying..." and I cried a river.. But in my most crying time, I saw that girl I was once in love with (and that girl I will always be in love with), and she came over to me, and started singing... "I could kill you sure but I could only make you cry wwith these words", and then she kissed me, and she begun to cry as well, and while I noticed her tears falling down all over my face, and I kissed her eyelids, you know, I felt happy, so happy I wasn't able to control my weeping, and I cried as if I was a few months old, and, (I'm not sure about that), I guess I woke up while dying... And then, in the darkness, lying in my bed, I actually started crying.. And I thought about that girl I was once in love, and cried for a moment while listening that song, and thinking "nobody will ever kill me, or even make me cry, with any word". But maybe last night I died a bit. Sorry about such a sad first posting... But you know, that's the state that I am in. Yours, Mon. +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the reborn Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". WWW: http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "jelly-filled danishes" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+