hello my lovelies. it's been awhile, yeah? things have been tre quiet round the sinister block of late, i hope this is due to all of you being so happy and successful that you just can't find time to write. it's funny how things happen. last weekend we had one mutha of a family reunion. i think there were about 180 of us in all...perhaps slightly fewer. at any rate, what would a family gathering be without crying, upset, heartache and verbal jabs that only those who know you well can inflict? yes, there were plenty of all of the above, but a lot of good came as well. i made amends with an aunt with whom i have been feuding. a different aunt told me that i have become hateful lately. i don't want to be hateful. granted, i think she was looking too deeply into some things, but i was definitely being stubborn and petty. so i approached my aunt, apologised, she apologised, we both cried and hugged. now things are swell again. my cousin anne, it was brought to my attention, has been feeling as though i was ignoring or shunning her. i was not doing either. she and i had a lovely chat, and again, i cried.....and we concluded that she and i had no problems, it was a matter of our family trying to instigate things that were just not there. i am really glad that those events took place though, as I feel better prepared to begin shaping myself into the person i wish to be. in other news; i had a nice chat with my uncle jim today...he is amazing. it began with my asking him about some financial things and ended with this life affirming "the problem with you speech" that really made me see some things that i have pushed to the back of my psyche of late. he told me that i need to worry about getting through school and getting a "career" more than i need to worry about money. and he is right. he told me that, while i may well have a medical condition causing my digestive upsets, i am also very depressed. which is right. he said that i need to realise some type of potential because, intellectually i have been given more than most. and he is right. so now i sit here, knowing what i knew before, but admitting it to myself, and someone else, for the first time. it's time to stop feeling sorry for myself. set a goal. focus on it. get it. don't let anything get in my way. etc. so i have a task list all set up (on my new phone and everything....my old phone broke all the sudden...grrr) so anyway. things to do. call school and be persistent about obtaining a place in the course for fall. call about debt consolidation. start exercising regularly again. stop approaching my finances with a "i'm never going to get out of this" mentality and, instead, opt for a "this is going to take some time, but i will get out of it" mentality instead. so enough of that. where have the regulars gone? dirty vicar? ken chu? the rachels? mark? it is just eerily quiet round sinister. see, those blogs are bad for sinister. i know that lots of people find their necessary outlets via blog now, so there is nothing to say to sinister. hmm?? have any of you read "The Hipsters Handbook?" it's fun....i s'pose if you take it in the tongue-in-cheek manner it is intended, all is fine. if you take it as an "I must live my life according to these hipster personality types" you will be a very one dimensional person. only one mention of the belles...which surprised me a little. and it was a negative one at that. in the BIPSTER personality description under LOATHES...it lists B&S. hmm... i think, if anything, i am an amalgam of all hipster types with some others thrown in. hipsters don't like prada. i do. hipsters don't like burberry. i do. so i am a what then? don't answer that. :O) ah well. i hope that this finds all of you well. love to all of you. extra love to the usual suspects. dv, ken, jinnifer, alex (are you alive?), chris cobb (are you alive?),eoin, and anyone whose name escapes me at present...oh yeah, rachel and ben fruitloop-apps :o) love, ~stine....a new woman __________________________________ Do you Yahoo!? SBC Yahoo! DSL - Now only $29.95 per month! http://sbc.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+