<sniff> <restrained sob> <deep breath> ummm....i'm off. hopefully not forever but at least till the summer when i finish my a-levels. it kind of hit home when my web of deception fell apart and my teachers realised that i haven't written an essay for any of them in nearly 4 months...all my subjects are essay subjects so that's fairly impressive...that actually i do want to go to uni and do english and stuff like that. but i need to do a lot of work and basically restructure my life and get it back on track. so i'm leaving this sinister land. i've been using it as an escape more and more lately. i always knew that at some point i'd need to face up to things in my real world and now the time has come. i don't know if i'll manage it, but i'm going to give it my best shot. i'd just like to say thank you to all of you, hugs all round and especially to honey for being honey. also major teary shouts out to various people, some of who i know, others i don't but for the last year you've kept me entertained and kept me going when things were bad...so cheers to ailsa, adam, scottie, owen, glam pam, carsmile steve, jim gilmer, nick dastoor, velocity, and jason andreas, though really every single one of you should be singled out cos you're all special. if anyone wants to keep in touch, please please do, and for the very last time i'm going to love you and leave you rachel xxx p.s that issue of select has cleared up lots of things that have been bugging me...i didn't realise that the new shack single 'oscar' was basically about a disabled guy having sex with a prostitute in holland...instead of hearing that oscar is 'wheelchair-bound', i've been hearing it as 'wiltshire bound' all week...nb: non-uk listees - wiltshire is a county in the west of england, so cue lots of jokes about inbred farmers, swindon town fans, bizarre sexual practices etc. (my tongue is firmly in cheek here, i grew up as far west in england as you can get and boy do i get people looking for my tractor....) also it sorted out the syphilis/sinfulness confusion over the primal scream track 'keep your dreams'...the bobmeister seemed quite insulted that everyone thinks he's singing about nasty diseases, serves him right for bad pronunciation.... but till my dying day i *still* think that my misheard version of llpj is far better than stuart's...instead of him singing about the girl who's been making 'plenty cash' in an illegal manner, i swear he really does compare jane's miserable existence to that of 'lesley ash', her of debs-in-men-behaving-badly fame.... and on that (bum) note, i really am going xxx +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+