I'm not Paraniod in the conventional sence of the word, for example I don;t beleive that the CIA have ever tried to blow up a bus that I have been on. I don;t either beleive that MI5 were responsable for making the plane I was on last october catch fire. I do remember once when I was young about 8 -like half my life ago- I was sure somebody had planted a bomb under my bed. No my paranoia is much more deep and sinister. I have this reccuring dream/nightmare/sleepwalk. In the dream I am responceable for it all the end of everything, I can;t remember much about what I have done, but I know it is my fault and I can see myself in prospective to the whole universe, {very scary beleive me!!} I have to get away from the whole univerce but I know I can;t and I never do escape. What usually happens is I wake up in the middle of the night in a form of limbo, I can remember everything I do however I am not in a state to controll myself, last time I locked myself in the toilet for half an hour while my Parents tried to get me out. I told them to "FUCK OFF" eventually I came out and tried to run out the house. After that I came out of it. I rememberd everything but I was not responsable for my actions. I beleive that it is my fear of the universe and whatever controlls that gives me these dreams. I beleive that I am deeply worried about a god and infinitie and my insignificance. John P>S "I know your face, I saw it in a teenage wet dream" Jarvis Cocker ----------------------------------------------------------------------- . This message was brought to you by the Sinister mailing list. . To send to the list please mail "sinister@majordomo.net". . For subscribing, unsubscribing and other list information please see . http://www.majordomo.net/sinister . For questions about how the list works mail owner-sinister@majordomo.net . Ascolta, questo è pish, io sto andando lasciare -----------------------------------------------------------------------