stop it. I haven't slept in the last forty-three hours. or so. so. some might think I'm dedicated. I'd try to stop them. but I'm too weak. I have a critique today at two o'clock. that's in three and a half hours or so. I was supposed to show my tutors a lot of work last tuesday. but I didn't. today's the final crit. I'm supposed to have a lot of work to show. but I don't. I've done a lot of work. or it feels like I have. I think I left it just...ten hours too late. silly me. madeleine, not wanting to promote vanity, said: 'Instead I shall end by saying I am indifferent to all of you.' all of me? surely there must be SOMETHING about me that you like. that WAS written for me. hey? or. ass. u. me. hm. yip. jump. almost carrying on with your vanity theme. or. RATHER. big stuart gardiner's vanity theme. and. well. gosh. isn't HE great? and modest too, I hear. a rare quality. almost carrying on. a wee while ago astrid wiezell [yeah?] had a terrific day. she said 'oh how lovely it was!' I read this as 'oh how lovely I was!'. I laughed. because. what a great thing to say! then I read it again. and I laughed some more. she has a photo. her opinion her appearance in it? 'I think I look too happy'...and 'but what the hell'. yes indeed. what the hell? that made me laugh too. she kinda reminds me of assia wevill. but not in proper ways. talk of people far away. it isn't even a suggestion. although it looks like it could be. now. I've decided. it is a suggestion. or something a little stronger. crushvoting: isn't the anonymity a wee bit...? hey. I wondered who had sent. but. then. I stopped. self-control. wow. yeah right. now, also, now, it's true: you can stop someone from thinking. hah. no: ...thinking in a disillusioned or embittered way. simply by telling them not to not to think in a disillusioned or embittered way. or. it's false. I forget. people that tell me my memory isn't that bad! who are you? I can't remember. perhaps I talked to you on the phone... I...seem to recall. nope... ...yes I recall: I do remember calling. who are you? despite my intense fatigue. I'm sort of not so unhappy. yes. but. what the hell? love, richard. __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Everything you'll ever need on one web page from News and Sport to Email and Music Charts http://uk.my.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+