it has been a while, and i doubt that but just a teeny handful of you might actually know who i am. but i had to post. just had to. i am in the big apple. new york. nyc. an old friend from san diego moved here and i sit here at her computer while she is at the lab letting the rats out of their meshy confines. but back to my point. as if i hardly ever have one. i am staying with my friend john in jersey city. he has high ceilings that i had never seen in person before. *flashback* valentine's day. 2002. my first valentine ever. and a sinister one at that. *real time* basically i just wanted to sit and write about him. because i completely adore him. so if you don't want to read on about someone special, fuck off and read something else. he is my comfort personified. he is the kind of friend that i don't mind the effort. i want everything special and beautiful for him. and though he may not believe it, i believe within my inner depths of all that is innocent and true that he will recieve it. he introduces me to new things that aren't so scary as when i'm alone. he is my warm blanket on chilly days. i have urges to hug him every once and a while. i have to get my fix. have you ever loved someone so much that you could literally feel it in your guts? my new daily prayer from now on will be that everyone finds one... he gives me complete honesty and the best of our humanity. a perspective of someone older, wiser, and beautiful. he is a gentlemen, which is a wonderful rarity. he pushes me to be a better person. and i want to be a better person for me and for him. i want to make him proud of me. so here's to you my love, cheers. everyone raise your glasses. here's to circus boys who feel melancholy for red heads and upstate new yorkers with the cutest ears in the world... love forever and ever, your little sara ===== all the people'd stare as if we were both quite insane someday my name and his are going to be the same __________________________________ Do you Yahoo!? SBC Yahoo! DSL - Now only $29.95 per month! http://sbc.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+