hello. i have been very embarassing yesterday, i cried at a public place. i travelled to the cinema to watch a film called le fabuleux destín d'amélíe poulaín, it was a story about a girl who grew up with herself and no one else, and she grew up with a lot of different ideas about the world and she likes to help the others around her to make their lives improve. while i was watching the film i was beginning to cry, very slowly. and then during the middle of the film a person told amélíe that she is helping all these other people when is she going to sort out her own life, and she started crying, and i started crying too. growing up with no one else can make someone very afraid, afraid of speaking with anybody or getting close to people. even although that is what you dream about doing every night, to be connected with another person, someone you can trust. although sometimes you can forget about everything when you keep yourself busy it always comes back to you at night, when you sleep, when you watch television about people being close. amélíe finds someone she can be close with in the end, maybe one day i will too, or maybe i will just carry on dreaming. i don't really know why i have just written all of this to you. lola. _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+