hello, heavens knows i'm miserable now. she said the ultimatum again last night, if i leave the job i can forget her too. i need to be miserable to be happy. i asked her if i made her unhapppy, she said yes. i asked her if she would be more unhappy without me, she said shed get over it. i thought this translated to she would be happier without me. aparently not. she cried this morning when she dropped me off. she was shouting at me because she was going to be late to pick up the other girl for work. she stopped outside my house and i went to get out then she asked for a peck on the cheek, i obliged. she cried. i thought about it last night, doing it. it's something i could never do. i only thought about it. i said i'd do it. people who say they'll do it never do. my gran tried to do it once, she was one who threatened it too. she knew what she was doing. she knew she wasn't doing it right. she took a lot of valium, she knew they'd only make her sleep, and not eternaly. she knew what she was doing. so i'll not be swimming, i'll just be hanging around at the harbour waiting on my little own water taxi to come pick me up, you never know quite when they're going to come for you. oh well, for the speciffic attention of anyone who remembers: even if the dolphin had lost it's porpoise in life, what would you prefer dolphins or jam? re: jokes; q what happens if you put whiskey on your lawn? a it grows half cut. q how did darth vader know what luke skywalker was getting for his christmas? a he felt his pressence a(2) for people who already know the joke) he's his dad of course he knows what he got for christmas oh well, i'm off to be sad and eyeore like again i quite like that actually. luv eyeore, in a smiths tshirt tom xxx. __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Everything you'll ever need on one web page from News and Sport to Email and Music Charts http://uk.my.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+