so i know it's tacky and all, but i'm drunk and since it's rare that i'm this drunk i thought i'd post. man, i'm hitting that delete key a lot. anyway, i'll start it out with some B&S content: i think i really want them to come back to the US simply so i can talk to chris geddes again and maybe have sex with him. that would be really nice. anyway, so a friend of mine who's on leave this semester at the NIH is in town for the long weekend and i went to the place where she's staying (the house she lived in on campus for the past couple years) and got drunk with her and her friends. anyway, she lives with this boy that i've been friends with since my first year here (it's now my fourth) and last year me and him got a little drunk (well, he got really drunk) and ended up having this strange conversation because i said i wanted to boff one of his friends and he was like "go for it. you're totally hot. i've considered having sex with you a few times." but he said the only thing that was stopping his pursuing me was that he had a girlfriend. anyway, i'm not so sure he has that girlfriend anymore. so i'm sitting on their back porch talking to him for like an hour and a half and i casually mention that jon and i broke up, because i wanted him to know that. anyway, the few people that were there end up leaving and it's just me, him, and my friend. so we talk for a bit, then my friend says she needs to go to bed soon and i swear it took like every ounce of willpower i have to resist staying longer to get even drunker with this kid because i knew i'd end up fooling around with him or something, and no matter how tempting that is i know i'd totally regret it because i have this massive aversion to sexual acts under the influence of just about any kind of drug, including alcohol. wow. my arms are really warm right now. must be my muscles converting the alcohol into sugar and my capillaries moving closer to the surface of my skin because alcohol does that. anyway, they're having another party tomorrow night and i think i may ask my friend if that boy is still dating that girl (i've seen him a few times this semester and no sign of the girl). but, wait! the friend that i told the boy i wanted to have sex with: i thought he might be on leave this semester but then he showed up really briefly tonight and i didn't get a chance to talk to him because we're not particularly close or anything. but i posed all cute and stuff and maybe he noticed me. maybe not. although i'm pretty sure every girl on campus has wanted to have sex with that kid, and i think most of them have (eew). but the other kid (oh fuck it, his name's seth); i don't think he remembers telling me that he wanted to have sex with me, so i don't really know how to proceed from here. he's cute and stuff but i've known him for so long . . . and i'm so desperate right now. oh well, enough of that. i'm not even sure if i'm going to send this because it's really no more than a drunken ramble and probably doesn't make any sense at all, anyway. i think i need to go to bed. this reminds me of that spring break i spent in germany. except i didn't have email then (thank god). enough of that. goodnight people. i hope honey doesn't kill me, and hope you don't think less of me. i think i'll go on irc for a while, that's always fun. -kerry "maybe if you find the time you'll make out with me, desperate me." -halo benders, "will work for food" +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the reborn Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". WWW: http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "jelly-filled danishes" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+