Oh Sinister. It's been an odd day. Usually I spend my time pestering people off-list (Laura Llew = saint) but today I had a very funny turn. Somebody killed themself in the parking lot where I work. And I was the first person to find them. I had to be at work sehr early -- 6 am. As I was brewing coffee and tea, I heard a big 'boom.' I went outside and saw a little coupe crashed against a streetlamp. There was blood all inside. Before I went outside, I called the police to come and help, since I didn't know what else to do. When I went to see if the driver was okay, I found a thing like a football/soccer ball in the parking lot. It was the dude's head. He had offed it by tying piano wire around his neck and tying the other end to a streetlamp in the parking lot, then taking off in his car. He decapitated himself almost instanteously. Then I found him. I spent a lot of the morning talking to the cops. They were all concerned, but I was pretty numb. The boss wanted me to go home and relax, but all I wanted to do was go on like nothing had happened. I was pretty weird all day, all glassy eyed and all, but I made it through my shift. Does that mean I'm sick, working after somebody offs themself? I didn't know what else to do, and to work seemed the most obvious amd useful thing to do. I'm really quite poor. Officer Chris was the first one on the scene, and I know him and I work with his brother, and he was okay with me working. Everybody -- customers and staff -- was disturbingly nice, like I was crazy, but I was still pretty sane, all things considered. I don't know what to think at all. I don't really want to sleep, so I'm going to a late night show of Gold Member, after midnight. Please, somebody, offer some suggestions. I'm REALLY confused. Laura?! Jay -- "Knowing? That's easy. Everyone does that ad nasueum. I just sort of hope." Dr. Who _________________________________________________________________ Chat with friends online, try MSN Messenger: http://messenger.msn.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+