hello, i wanted to thank everyone who wrote to me (about that broken heart thing). it feels good to know that there are so many kind and caring people around. so thank you:). well, i�ve only had 2 horrible days this week. one morning i just started crying uncontrolable and couldn�t stop. mum asked what�s wrong and i said nothing. then she said there must be something, cos you don�t cry like that without a reason. so then i told her that it�s just about him. she comforted and said �oh you�ll find another boy�. some of you thought that i�m quite young, but i�m over twenty though. and yes this was my first big love. i used to be so embarrased, cos i was already 20 and i never had a boyfriend, but it was stupid though, cos i know now that there are lots of other people of my age who never have had a boyfriend/girlfriend. i don�t think it�s strange. i know what it�s like when you feel a bit insecure and don�t know what to say and when you think of something to say, the moment has already gone. and i know what it�s like when all your friends have boyfriends and don�t want to go out with you. i�ve been sort of practising to think about other boys, sometimes it feels good, but usually it doesn�t, but i know that eventually it�ll feel good. there�s this one boy at uni whom i�ve been kind of �looking�:). he�s blond, skinny and very tall. i think he looks a bit like some greek god. he has this poise that makes him look, somehow, so noble. once, when i was surfing on the net, he came to sit next to me! i was so happy and couldn�t stop smiling. so i went to b&s� homepage incase he�d know them, he might say something to me. but he didn�t say anything. oh well, maybe next time. yesterday i watched this movie �things i never told you�. lili taylor is in it. (i think she�s pretty.) in the movie she gets a phone call from her boyfriend. he wants to split up with her. then she (lili) starts to make these videotapes for him, where she tells how she feels. she tells him this joke, which she had been saving for the day they�d meet. and i thought that was so funny, cos i had these 2 jokes that i was going to tell him when we would�ve met. i told him the jokes on the phone though, and he laughed. then i told him that i had seen a woodpecker for the first time in my life, just a few days before we split up. he said he hadn�t never seen one. that i miss the most, cos i could always tell him about things like that that other�s would�ve thought maybe banal and stupid, and would�ve laughed, but he never laughed. he was always interested. ok, no more about him, i promise. i can�t wait to go back to uni. finally, after 3 years i managed to finish all those courses that i should�ve finish during my first year:), but i�m so motivated now to study more. i even passed my grammar exam. i got 2-! which means good! it�s grammar! 5 people failed though and i was certain i�d fail, but i didn�t. happy pulu:). i haven�t bought �storytelling�, cos i just bought this trembling blue stars cd `broken by whispers�. there�s one song that reminds me the cure. and makes me want to listen to them. anyways, i need to save some money, cos i have to buy a new camera. i�ll stop now. thanks again :). yours, puluxxx __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Yahoo! - Official partner of 2002 FIFA World Cup http://fifaworldcup.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+