'ello loves, this is a pointless post, right out, so if you are not in the mood, go right on and back space to delete, 'kay? i just came from a tragic birthday party for my friend Meesha to which very few people came. it was so sad. she is the most beautiful person. she just didn't tell anyone it was her day, y'know? it's her golden birthday too, and it was mine this year as well, which also kind of sucked, so maybe it's just a thing with golden birthdays. i left early because she was getting tipsy and she and vanessa kept telling me a had to take my shirt of for them, so to avoid embarassing memories tomorrow, i thought it better to leave. a pleasant side not, as i was leaving, Electronic Renaissance was playing, so it stuck in my head. and also my friend brady paid for all of our dinners at a fancy fancy restaurant, which was a lovely gesture that will give me guilt for ages... for all those that i talked to earlier on #sinister, it is evident that i am no longer a complete freakshow-stress-boy, as i was hours ago. it reached a point where not only did i have millions of things to do, but everything went wrong, and i completely deflated, and found myself half-laying on my couch with one kitten on my hip and one at my head, watching 'friends' and reading Flaunt magazine, feeling sorry for myself... i could bitch to no end about the horrors of this day, but instead will just give a brief run down of the little 'princess and the pea' style bumps that looked so huge i couldn't deal...the local photo shop couldn't do same day slides, light rain started before shooting new slides outside of paintings b/c i optimistically bought day light film, camera's rewind nob broke (replaced quickly thank god), tripod was stolen from studio, almost got in 4 car accidents, friends vanished when i needed them, computer crashed and destroyed 4 hours of video editing, umm, the list could go on, but mercifully stops here. suffice to say, i am tipsy now and feeling right content with the pathetic attempts made to conquer what was obviously a day that was not meant to happen. mmm if anyone in the pittsburgh area is going to the Need show tomorrow, i will be there, you'll know me by, um, well, nothing really. i can't promise to wear anything, as the weather has been so unpredictable. mmmmmm oh! one more sad thing... Where have my list crushes gone!!! i had 4 at one point and now it is down to 1!! did i do something awful? did i suddenly become lame? my fragile ego is ruined :) no, i have one and that is all i need and you fickle mind-changers are just missing out, yeah? :) (not really i suppose, i swear i'm not that full of myself) plus, i know who my one is, and that is pleanty for me. she gets all my kisses! mmmmmwah! okay, this is long enough. my sincere appologies for rambling like this. i suppose it is list abuse to use you all as a sounding board for my grumps, please forgive. much love to all of you, tipsy and boring, li'l sam ________________________________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+