Sinister: "schoolyard sexual politics"

[Archel]

buongiorno. what was preoccupyng me today? oh yes.

i'm another one of
the unfortunate people who are currently 20 years
old, and i expect that, yes, there are many listerines (and indeed
other, normal people) who do not consider this old. at all. and it
isn't, but as the big two one approaches and there will soon be
precious little that i'm not allowed to do on grounds of age any more,
things do begin to look a bit bleak. biologically, i suppose, i am
still very wee, but this is no comfort since as i am a grrrl i will
not reach my sexual prime until my thirties, which leaves an awful lot
of time to be unsatisfied and repressed. meanwhile all my male friends
are romping around, hormones raging, content (?) in the knowledge that
they are at their physical peak RIGHT NOW. and yet how many couples do
you see made up of thirty year old women and nineteen year old men?
not nearly enough, i say.

oh dear, i'm rambling today. i haven't spoken to anyone for a while...

reading articles and stuff (and even picking up vibes from this list),
it seems that there is a certain perception of what b&s fans are like,
as well as the band. i must say that i don't feel described by
anything i've read. i don't think i have a 'look'. i don't wear indie
glasses, i don't even wear cardies or flares or flowers or band
t-shirts. i look like someone who doesn't listen to music at all, i
think. but i kind of thought that liking b&s, unlike any other band,
meant that you didn't have to look or act like anything in particular.
seems i could be wrong though. i don't have any indie credentials - i
don't go to gigs any more, my cd collection is pretty tiny, and i've
never heard of the field mice. also i've never read any douglas
coupland or kerouac, or lots of other people mentioned here. now that
b&s are becoming 'news', i feel constrained by being a 'fan', and even
a bit alienated from other 'fans'. i thought it was about the music...

all that said, i'm feeling quite happy in my own little ignorant,
non-sectarian way at the moment. finished my dissertation, the sun is
shining over the city of york, i've got lovely music to listen to
(although i may not know anything about it) and i'm seeing my
sweetheart on monday.

'you heard the bird sing, everything will be fine'.

luv archel xxx  
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Rachel Playforth
rap101 at york.ac.uk
http://members.tripod.com/~RPlayforth/welcome.htm

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do something pretty while you can
don't be afraid
skating a pirouette on ice is cool

- belle and sebastian
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