Sinister: England is mine and it owes me a living, so please let me get what I want

[Robert Foster]

Crumbs, people replied to something I wrote.  Right first off:
CALLENDAR R wrote:

>My treatment at school, especially Junior school age 7-11, was not
particually
>pleasant. I was never really beaten up or hit to any degree, but the
verbal
>abuse and general comments were quite regular, although subtle. 

I'd have to agree here too. I was never beaten up, but verbal abuse hurts
the most.  And worst of all after a while you start to believe what they
say.  Even the teachers weren't very nice (and I mean that).  For me it was
7 - 10, when I reached 10 my parents moved and I went to a new school, I
was so 'spaced out' and 'on my own (facing inwards)' the teachers thought I
had some sort of mental problem, they even thought I was deaf.  Anyway, six
months later I went to secondary school and they (the teachers) just gave
up on me, it wasn't 'till I got to 6th form (and I only got there 'cuz I
done some smart talking) that they found out I was dyslexic.  

I too don't know why they did it, I'm not that ugly, don't talk in a funny
way, I dunno!  These three years of my life have affected me even to this
day.  I still see girls and boys as aggressive people.  I had to adopt a
different way of dealing with things at junior school.  I would go to
school, get abused and come home and beat my self up thinking it was down
to me.  when we moved away it was buried but just over a year ago
re-surfaced, I still remember the look on my parents faces when I told them
that when I was eight I tried to do myself in.  

Rollerg1rl at aol.com (mary) wrote:

>the shy and nonshy do have one thing in common though-rejection.

I liked this, the idea that the outgoing think the shy don't like them and
the shy thinking that the outgoing are too 'in your face' and there fore
don't mix with them.  You totally right.

Right, I'm off to cheer myself up, go down to the local shop, but some
beer, come back, listen to the Smiths and think of her.  Oh Shit
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