Sinister: Toronto Bashing to Death...the topic that is.

[deb s]

allo,
i think i'll attempt to use headings, so you can pick and choose what you'd 
like to delete/read.  this attempt at politeness has of course completely 
ruined my attempt to enter this post in an angry manner, so just pretend it 
didn't happen...


T.O. BASHING

Oi!! What is with this?
EA whoever said...

>...I think my original conclusions about Toronto were correct :\

Just because you didn't get a chance to meet any other sinisterites, DOESN'T 
mean we're snotty people, not that you said that, but you certainly conveyed 
it in different words.  All the listees that I have met, either in depth or 
only spoken a few words with, were wonderfully *lov-e-ly* people.  I was 
pleasantly surprised that there were no 'too cool for you' types around.  
But I guess you'll never know....


LOLLING

On then, to Mother Nature and the cruel little trick she's playing with the 
weather over here.  It's almost October and is meant to feel that way!  Last 
week I was wearing mittens and settling into the whole university routine 
again...but now this....this....heat wave of sorts that we are having.  It's 
tricking me into the summer routine of absolute laziness (yeah...like you 
ever get out of that routine deb...), putting off school work to lie around 
parks, listening to music, contemplating the future and watching squirrels 
romp around.  Dammit!! I have an essay due tomorrow and I can't seem to get 
around to it.  Good on me for getting out of the rut that is 
procrastination.  Posting to Sinister is also key to escaping.


DEATH :(

And I must add my two cents on the death issue, as it seems to have been a 
key factor in my leap from childhood bliss to adulthood reality (insanity).  
I think my fear stems in the loss of others really, not myself.  I think I 
avoided relationships for a long time because the thought of loosing someone 
was soo painful...and then I felt it.  Whoever said 'It is better to have 
loved and lost, then to have never loved at all', must not have experienced 
it.  I know many will object, but that is how I feel.

Alasdair said :

>assuming there's no afterlife
>which I do, you're basically unconscious for ever. And the thought of
>just not knowing anything, not being anything FOR THE REST OF ETERNITY
>just scared the living shit out of me, and I'm not sure why.

I don't want to go too far into this, but that (above) is basically what 
revived my....errmmmm...spiritual side, belief in *up above* or *the great 
beyond*.  There are soo many people around these days willing to take me on, 
ask why I believe the things I do, and one simple answer I have, as childish 
and naive as it may seem, is that it makes me happy and less scared of the 
unknown.  Is that really soo bad?  Ohhhh....I won't take this any further...


GATHERING?

On a lighter note, if anyone is still reading, a few sinisterites will be 
going to Vox on friday, after Kado's (whoops!) Steven's (heehe) glowing 
review of last week.  I too am reluctant, as they (bangers e le mash) also 
host BlowUp, but apparently the different night and different venue make all 
the...well, difference.  So anyone who has been aching to meet some sinister 
coos, email one of us and we'll meet, possibly in a pub (most likely) before 
hand.

Alright, I will keep quite now and leave sinister land...(yet again...boo)

luv deb
xxxxxxx

i miss you all :(

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