Sinister: the eloquent tongue of miss denise power.

[Denise Power]

hi list. 
I'm in the clear! Hurray. And now I have a sinister story to tell you. 
What is extra strange is that I went to the library today to get away from
the messy intrigue of my life and wouldn't you know, part of my course is
on conspiracies. Which is of course the most sinister of all things
corrupt becuase as my extensive 4 hour research today proves, the
government is hugely complicity in every plot to overthrow the state. But
no time for that, heres the story. 
Its a bit tough going at times, but bear with it - it is a harsh lesson in
the school of life. 
 There is a porter system in my college
known as Services. They are
a glorified police force/KGB. Some of them even have blue blue eyes and
blonde hair.
When I graduated last year, I realised I needed some type of job to keep
me going. I decided to join services. I loved it at first because it was a
very cushy job but then for reasons out of my control, i was transferred
centres. Then I was moved to a place where bitchiness and back stabbing
was plentiful. There was one man there who was very interested in the fact
that I worked for the paper. A little too interested some might say.
A couple of weeks past and I came to realise that actually these people
weren't very nice. I was quite unhappy in work without really being able
to pinpoint why. The head of services at the time hated my guts, which was
part of it but I just felt uneasy whenever I went in. 
Suddenly I started accidently missing shifts, as in I'd be pencilled in on
Mondays for Monday nights and then get in trouble for not showing. For
being told to go on extra lunch and then getting in shit for taking too
long. 
then I did a terrible thing. 
I was working one night and i had a boy in the office. i know it was
wrong because i got caught.
After this, i was forced to attend a meeting where I was severely
reprimanded.
I was forced to go on training as my probation period which , if I failed,
I was out. I knew fucking everything for the assessment and really pulled
my socks up and made the head of services love my little twinkle toes yet
managed to fail assessment. How odd, i thought. So I resat it. this time,
although the questions were ridiculously hard again., i felt i had done
pretty well. But no, strangely I failed again. 
Now all this time, certain people , such as the boy who was very
interested in the fact that I worked for the paper were making my life
hell. I belived in conspiracy theories even though you have this safety
latch inherent in you which reassures you that you are just being
paranoid. I also had my friends in work (one person) telling me not to be
silly although they did acknowledge that I wasn't having an easy time of
it. i got really annoyed and upset when i failed the second time, becauseI
felt like the scapegoat in an interdepartment struggle. I also felt like I
was being made an example of , ie the girl who failed assessment ten times
before passing, so future generations would have that as a case study.
Well no thank you, while posterity will benefit  greatly from my biography
i don't want to be remembered in that way. 
So i quit. 
the head of services who now thought I was great was devasted and asked me
to come back in the summer. i said I'd think about it. 
I was so happy to leave and my friend organised a big party and loads of
people came  to it. 
At this party, the boy who took a huge interest in my extracurricular
activites kissed me on the cheek and was real nicey nicey to meand told me
that when I got caught with the boy in the office it was cause John , a
boy I worked with, told. Now, I think the boy with the uncanny interest in
me, who we'll call MOG from now on, is a dangerous person. Hes a total
bitch and very clever and easily has the ability to backstab anyone.
Actually I'm kind of afraid of him. So obviously I'm keeping him at arms
length , laughing and joking with him because there is no way I'm going to
cross this boy. 
Cut to yesterday. 
My friend in work rings me distraught saying how John (mentioned above) is
suing MOG for divulging confidential information to me and twisting it
(defamation of character.) the truth was while john did tell, he was put
under pressure by MOG and the other Managers who had seen me already. Now
I knew MOG had it in for me on account of a couple of other incidents and
a couple of roster switching occasions and just his general bitchiness. So
when he told me john told, I took it with a grain of salt, having intially
suspected John but written it off as paranoia and also bad judgement
because John is a decent guy. 
Myself and my friend were implicated in a separate matter which involved
the same people but also the girl I hate. Now I can't go into it, but she
tried to save herself thus implicating me and my friend unjustly so while
we played a minor role in the defamation of charac ter of John, it was
miscontrued and also not meant in any form of malicious intent. Shes the
one I wanted to implicate but only beacuse I knew she was behind it and
cos I hateher, even though thats not a good reason. 
But today me and my friend went and sorted it out with John and really
even if we were still involved (which we're not) its obvious nothing
malicious was done. But ...
john told me off the  record that MOg had  a vendetta against me since day
one. Beacuse of the involvement with the paper. It was him who made the
head of services hate me at the start, he spread vicious completely untrue
rumours,. changed the roster so I looked unreliable and proof of that is
that the same thing happened John who he also had it in for for different
reasons. He'd do stuff like allow me to make mistakes , then write up a
report on it and he fiddled with my files and my wages and brought my
conduct up at every meeting. 
The worst thing is I believed in a conspiracy theory and felt like I was
cracking up for doing so. I don't mean to sound overdramatic but it was
actually true all along. the worst thing is that evil people like him get
away with that sort of bullying with no repercussions ever. He decided to
get rid of me and did - it took him 6 months but he still succeeded. He
decided to get rid of John and did after a year. (he has more strength of
cahracter and i am very vunerable politically)
Instinct is a great thing. I'm never distrusting it again. 
This has sounded like a self indulgenet rant but there was a great
response to the litigation wail of dispair  so this is to say thanks to
all the nice people and not to the mean person who made scathing
comments. people like you are particularly nasty because you like to kick
people when they are down. Whats worst  is that my friend is still working
there and can feel the first phase of MOG getting rid of her paraonia
coming on, and theres no way to prevent it. I think she should cut her
losses and leave now because if you fight him back, he will sting back
even
harder. Hes just evil. 
In a way though, I'm so glad it happened because i have to get a real job
soon and its taught me alot about office politics and keeping everyone at
arms length and the necessity in having No political enemies and the
importance of keeping a low profile. 
This has been a very harsh lesson for the belle and sebastians of this
world but it just goes to show how too much escapism isn't really all that
good for your moral wellbeing. God, I've aged at least 15 years over the
last two days. 
Lets all sigh together.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I think I
better do some yoga.




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