Sinister: i dont know

[triumphant loser]

Sounds like you hit the bottom
----- Original Message -----
From: sweetie <i.am.sinister at xxx.uk>
To: sinister <sinister at missprint.org>
Sent: Wednesday, February 02, 2000 5:13 PM
Subject: Sinister: i dont know


> sinister
>
> shit
> im losing it.
> from the first moment of waking up and when the first cup of coffee tasted
> like washing up
>
> ok i prob got that all wrong
> but i am
>
> im so scared
>
> first, for the first time ever i lost it and really screamed at someone-in
> class. for a very petty reason.
> i was tld to go for a walk till id calmed down.
> i didnt go back till the end. even tho id calmed down- i couldnt face
them.
>
> and then today
> :*(
> i dont get on with one of my sisters, at all
> shes a year and half younger
> and is very mean to me
> she always calls me a freak and is generally very horrible
>
> and today i lost it with her
> but i didnt just scream at her
> i took evry reasonable appraoch i could think of but it didnt work
> i went for her
> i grabbed her hair and dragged her onto the floor
> (bearing in mind shes about 2" taller and alot bigger and stronger)
> i stood over her back and held her down
> she was screaming and screaming
> she got me off and i got her into like a headlock
> then i left
> and she was crying and upset
> she phoned my dad and he came and took her away
> and i was shaking and crying and scared
>
> i feel so stressed and so scared
>
> help me i am so scared
> what have i done
>
> lost,
> sweetie
> x
>
>
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