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[Leyla McNickle]

..Someday
..Someday soon
..lifes gonna catch up with you
..someday
..someday soon
..It's all gonna crash down on you

hello list kids.

It's been another weekend. Another few hangovers,
another few dissapointments. 

I've done my exams this past week, and I won't have
any for another 3-4 weeks. Luckily.  So now, I can
just sulk about and participate fully in all my
hedonist dreams.
My last post (also Sarahless) involved my rockstar
poseur attitude.  That was probably last week.  This
past week. I feel like I am being looked at, followed,
and stalked.  There is a general sense of
uneasyness... and sometimes I  feel as though I am
going quite mad.  Still. There are those few people in
my life, that make all the uneasyness dissapear.  When
I get to bask in their passion for life and fun, I
easily forget everything that is bothering me...
But now, I sit alone in my room...trying to find the
energy to leave the house and do something
productive... It's 4:36 in the afternoon... and the
likleyhood of doing anything useful seems to be
diminishing at an extraordinary rate.
The thought of sitting at home, watching sappy movies,
and crying seems so much more useful....

Some B&S content:  I had a good night last night. 
Went to the pub with Sarah and met up with some
friends.  Had a couple ciders and such....generally
had a good time.  The pub owner lets us play our Cd's
in the hi-fi...which is rocking, cos' otherwise we
would have to listen to some half-arsed american
country type music.  Anyway.  So, Sarah and I did get
to enjoy some good Belle & Sebastian tunes that
night... I was feeling quite down as it was.. but
watching Sarah singing to B&S... made me happy.  She
is so beautiful to watch when she gets passionate
about something. Her eyes close...and she just
sings...it feels like we are the only people in the
world that know the way things are...the only ones
that understand what B&S means...
anyway!

Also, London info. I've heard some of this talk about
Tigermilking or whatever in London. If someone can
please give me info on this, I would be most greatful.
 Me, Sarah and Company..will be in london
march2-13th... so, yeah. Let me know what all that is
about.

Its very sad when you give up on someone.  It's like
you have lost all hope in the human race as a whole. 
I used to feel that I could like/love anyone and
everyone... but as I am experiencing new relationships
(of the boyfriendish nature) I realise that sometimes
you just can not "make do" with what you have.  The
only thing I wonder..is it my fault that I can not
"make do" with other peoples faults...or is that their
problem...

I will now go, and be the type of girl I never thought
I would be. I will watch a sappy movie, eat chocholate
cake, and cry. :)  Should be a new experience.  One
that I hopefully won't make a habit of.

"love and poison"
leyla

"I Wanna Be Adored"


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