Sinister: hesitation

[jessica stuart]

crushing sound of her voice the tainted misery as if i could handle any-more 
i am too tragic but i don't even mind afterall i am an air 
sign..............
     what puts us in our categories? it's obvious if you analyze a person's 
setting... thier atmosphere.... the people they consider to be thier 
friends.. thier parents... but it amazes me at times.. that we are all of 
the human race, and so diverse from one another. on account that the human 
brain is so incredible... however, not many live up to the potential they 
have .... i'm tired of seeing everyone wasting away.  so different, yet the 
faults have this ironic similarity.... and i see it in nearly every first 
post... insecurity. what disgusts me is not the fact that one could be 
insecure, but that one would deal with it so irrationally by joining into 
little cliques, and unprogressively living this monotonous lifestyle of 
smoking up every day to celebrate boredom. or to sit in thier groups and 
critique every soul in passing as if they could dig a single thing of value 
from thier petty discourse. i think i would like to call these all 
self-destructive coping devices....destruction for the masses...am i a 
hipocrit... or is it just human nature?
whatever... random thoughts.
so i know it is a bit late but i have to say that in reference to the mixes 
of lust and love... (not recalling actual titles here and now) .... anything 
by nick cave works for me. Yeah Lis, i totally understand what you meant 
when you spoke of "those songs that have nothing to do with sex, but they 
just make you like...ugh!" that is nick cave.
for me anyhow. as for sonic youth's "purr" i dunno... "things that make ya 
go hmmm"
i had a pleasant day. i don't say this often, but it is true on this 
occassion. and it was such fabulous weather ended off in the night with 
showers of rain to sooth my insanities.

Lisa has been bugging me to post, so here it is... nothing spectacular... 
just my thoughts.i communicate best through my writing and artwork. i am 
certain plenty of people can relate. but i seem to feel after a while that i 
am just odd... and the world will hate me if i keep opening my mouth..... i 
make no sense to anyone. or so it seems ...
well there is more to come in the later hours ...
waiting for a pretty lil' thing to come tapping at my window pane....
jeia~*
i like pickles ...mmm... always that last thought
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