Sinister: you'll be fine

[Lauren L.]

Hi...

I mostly slept today because this week was a killer. 
The dogwood trees are starting to bud.... they're the
prettiest trees ever, except for japanese magnolias
and the cherry blossoms that I have to see one day in
d.c.

jessica stuart wrote:
>painting usually keeps me sane but lately it only
>gives me sleepless 
>night. i sit there... staring at it... i close my
eyes >to go to bed and i am 
>still staring at it... still working on it... and it
>is consuming me... i don't think this is a good
thing.

I think I know the feeling... that weird time when
it's late and quiet, and the front of your head is
pounding and your eyes are squinting and heavy as you
try to paint a really thin line on something, and all
you can think about is to make the picture look
better... and the fumes of the paint make you feel all
dirty and tired.  When you finally go to sleep, all
you can see is that squiggly thin line and your
unsteady fingers tediously trying to paint it longer
and longer.

Yes.  The only Academy Award big deal movie I saw was
"Pollack" which was really cool but made me feel like
my painting was a big fat joke.  Oh well.

Paddington Bear was okay enough, but when I was little
I was a much bigger fan of Corduroy the Bear... the
one that lost the button off of his corduroy overalls
and got locked in the department store at night when
he tried to look for it.

Laura Llew wrote:
>I finally moved after a relatively short time in 
>hopes that I would erase her fear that one day she
>might walk into our dorm room to find me in my
>confederate flag bikini dancing around to "Dixie" 

...scary... I know people who have done this!  
maybe I shouldn't admit to that.

>(which is what I always use as my talent in all the
>beauty pageants I enter).

EEK.  I saw a special inside look into beauty
pageants.  I don't understand how they can make those
girls' hair poof out like that... it's like straight
at the top, but then when it gets to their shoulders
it BURSTS out in thousands of curls... plus, it never
moves... EVER.  The anxious mothers wait in the
audience nervously cluctching bottles of hairspray. 
They play grocery store music in the background.

>I have shunned the sun since High School thus making 
>me into quite the whitey.

The sun is so mean to me.  If I sit out for too long,
I turn lobster red and pass out.  Then, I don't move
for a few days.  So, I tend to avoid too much sun.  I
am moderately pasty as a result.  Maybe it's for the
better... one of our teachers always tells us that
suntanning is a sin because it harms our bodies and
makes us more prone to skin cancer.

Really late last night, I was driving home by myself
after having a lot of fun... and they played most of
IYFS on the radio... I drove really fast and just sang
the whole way... it was really perfect.

Night night.

Lauren


__________________________________________________
Do You Yahoo!?
Get email at your own domain with Yahoo! Mail. 
http://personal.mail.yahoo.com/
+-------------------------------------------------------------------------+
        +---+  Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list  +---+
     To send to the list mail sinister at missprint.org. To unsubscribe
     send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to
     majordomo at missprint.org.  WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister
 +-+       "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper           +-+
 +-+  "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+
 +-+    "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000     +-+
 +-+  "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000  +-+
 +-+               Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa                 +-+
+-------------------------------------------------------------------------+