Sinister: nothing hurts you like the pain of someone you love

[Rachel oj]

darlings,


well, "nothing hurts you like the pain of someone you love".
that is so true.
oh. i'm in big pains today. i'm feeling awfully low.
everyone's going on about love now.
oh, i don't even want to think about it really.
love always seems to disappoint me anyway.

i've got a really hard time trusting people. it haven't always been like 
that. that's one thing that love has done.
dammit.

right.
i don't really think i've got anything fun to say, so maybe i should just go 
and do something else. like... once again, eating lots of chocolate? it do 
help. really.
but if i'll continue eating this much chocolate, i'll be dead fat in the end 
of the month.

so, my ex is refusing to leave me alone. damn him.
i believe it's thru with monica, and now he wants me back.
i love him, i really do, i cant help it!
and i'm like... the weakest. i won't ever be able to say no to him as i 
thought i would.
i could always dream on though.

the wrong girl...
no.
the wrong boy.
definetly.




love,
rachel oj


ps. astrid's very sweet.

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